03.Dec.15, 12:08 PM
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I think I like girls.
And boys.
Well, I know I do, especially given who my dad is, it'd be weird if I didn't I guess. But I'm not entirely like R'nd either. I don't find every single person I walk by attractive. In fact, most people don't turn my head or make my heart flutter a bit.
Is that wrong?
I don't even know which part I'm questioning. Is it wrong I don't want to jump everyone I know? Is it wrong I like both genders, especially when I'm a bronzerider and traditionally they only want pretty ladies from good Hold upbringings? Is it wrong it took me this long to notice I might be attracted to someone?
My dad is the perfect guy to talk to about attraction but he's also the worst person to ask. For one thing, he hasn't really mastered the father-son chats yet and would likely freak out and I'll end up either talking with Ayyonth or maybe even B'jin before he also flailed or laughed his butt off at R'nd's reaction. But R'nd also lusts unconditionally (before falling for B'jin but everyone knows not to bring that up despite it being five years they've been together) and he wouldn't really understand that I might not and that I might kind of sort of find it awkward to even approach someone I like.
I think I might also like the wrong people who would never like me back.
Growing up sucks.
I think I like girls.
And boys.
Well, I know I do, especially given who my dad is, it'd be weird if I didn't I guess. But I'm not entirely like R'nd either. I don't find every single person I walk by attractive. In fact, most people don't turn my head or make my heart flutter a bit.
Is that wrong?
I don't even know which part I'm questioning. Is it wrong I don't want to jump everyone I know? Is it wrong I like both genders, especially when I'm a bronzerider and traditionally they only want pretty ladies from good Hold upbringings? Is it wrong it took me this long to notice I might be attracted to someone?
My dad is the perfect guy to talk to about attraction but he's also the worst person to ask. For one thing, he hasn't really mastered the father-son chats yet and would likely freak out and I'll end up either talking with Ayyonth or maybe even B'jin before he also flailed or laughed his butt off at R'nd's reaction. But R'nd also lusts unconditionally (before falling for B'jin but everyone knows not to bring that up despite it being five years they've been together) and he wouldn't really understand that I might not and that I might kind of sort of find it awkward to even approach someone I like.
I think I might also like the wrong people who would never like me back.
Growing up sucks.