16.Feb.21, 05:25 PM
There was some comfort in that, D'nei supposed as he kept trying to focus on his breathing. It did help to think that this wasn't him, it had just been Casnovath doing... it and just taking him along for the ride. Though it was odd to hear that F'drel also never wanted to have sex. He'd thought something was wrong with him in a way, that he'd grow out of it or something, or just wasn't doing something right. And maybe if he could figure out some secret it wouldn't seem so incredibly wrong. Or feel so wrong now that he'd given it a try first hand. Not that he could remember most of it anyway, and he considered that a small blessing in itself.
Though if F'drel also didn't like this sort of thing then... D'nei let out a long sigh, managing not to groan. "Now I feel like an ass for not thinking you'd be bothered by this too... since you're... never mind." He didn't want to point out the obvious, that the man was a greenrider and there were assumptions about greenriders. Then again there were assumptions about blues as well. D'nei cringed at the thought of doing this again and potentially making a fool of himself.
You're not making a fool of yourself. You're even making a friend! D'nei was not sure he agreed with Casnovath's assessment but he could at least stop hiding. With a grunt he pushed himself up to sit at least, one hand rubbing at his eyes while the other quickly grabbed a bit of blanket to cover himself as he turned a shade red in embarrassment. "I still feel wrong, and I don't know how to make that better. But thank you for talking to me. And I'm sorry for this. Maybe I'll just... get numb too. Numb has to be better than wrong, right? Or at least better than panicking and upsetting people or Cassie."
He could at least get dressed. D'nei started to look around for his clothes while he did his best to not make eye contact with F'drel. I didn't hurt him at all did I? He felt Cassie scoff as he gave Halomirth a gentle nuzzle. Of course not. Only the most passionately affectionate and loving time for prizes. He wasn't sure he liked how that sounded at all, but he supposed it was something. He cleared his throat as he surveyed the messy state of the weyr, glancing very briefly over at F'drel as he asked, "Did you want me to help clean or anything? I don't know what normally happens after these things."
Though if F'drel also didn't like this sort of thing then... D'nei let out a long sigh, managing not to groan. "Now I feel like an ass for not thinking you'd be bothered by this too... since you're... never mind." He didn't want to point out the obvious, that the man was a greenrider and there were assumptions about greenriders. Then again there were assumptions about blues as well. D'nei cringed at the thought of doing this again and potentially making a fool of himself.
You're not making a fool of yourself. You're even making a friend! D'nei was not sure he agreed with Casnovath's assessment but he could at least stop hiding. With a grunt he pushed himself up to sit at least, one hand rubbing at his eyes while the other quickly grabbed a bit of blanket to cover himself as he turned a shade red in embarrassment. "I still feel wrong, and I don't know how to make that better. But thank you for talking to me. And I'm sorry for this. Maybe I'll just... get numb too. Numb has to be better than wrong, right? Or at least better than panicking and upsetting people or Cassie."
He could at least get dressed. D'nei started to look around for his clothes while he did his best to not make eye contact with F'drel. I didn't hurt him at all did I? He felt Cassie scoff as he gave Halomirth a gentle nuzzle. Of course not. Only the most passionately affectionate and loving time for prizes. He wasn't sure he liked how that sounded at all, but he supposed it was something. He cleared his throat as he surveyed the messy state of the weyr, glancing very briefly over at F'drel as he asked, "Did you want me to help clean or anything? I don't know what normally happens after these things."