24.Jun.19, 12:09 AM
“If you’re ending up alone from not opening up to people, I’m ending up more alone than you are,” he said dryly, not worrying too much about how exactly being more-alone worked. If not opening up about your feelings isolated you F’drel was a fucking hermit. He could probably count the number of things people knew about him from his childhood on one hand. Might even have fingers left over. F’drel completely understood the desire to keep as much as possible hidden — you were less likely to get hurt. His concern lay more in being taken advantage of than being left, but he felt the same fear of being hurt by someone.
Which meant that of course he was going to agree to go to T’ryn’s party with her. F’drel didn’t particularly want to go to T’ryn’s party — he knew how many people? Mylorah, T’ryn himself, and A’tay? It’s not like he’d really talked to A’tay since Thallyath’s Flight, so that could easily be awkward. N’mor would certainly be there, and maybe Z’rin, which F’drel didn’t much want to deal with. Z’rin had joined him for lunch a few times to ‘catch up,’ which was awkward enough, but F’drel had never properly met N’mor, and while the man was weyrbred, he was also a bronzerider and F’drel was a bit reluctant to have to address the inevitable ‘hi, nice to meet you, I had sex with your mate, but it was our dragons so it’s okay’ when they were eventually formally introduced. And then R’nd would be there, and that would be awkward because F’drel wasn’t overly well-inclined towards the man since Mylorah wasn’t sure of him, and then R’nd’s mate, and then R’nd’s sister and all the Holder family. Overall far too many unknown people for F’drel to feel comfortable about.
Still, Mylorah was right about one thing; if he went, Halomirth would be able to bring him back whenever he (well, Mylorah) wanted. He wouldn’t be stuck there. Miri probably wouldn’t even complain too much about leaving friends because it would be for Mylorah, not just him being antisocial. And if he hung back, it would be acceptable because he was just he tag-along ride.
“I’ll take you there, I’ll stay with you, and I’ll bring you home when you decide to leave,” F’drel said seriously. “I won’t leave you to go alone. Though if you have any advice for me, please share, I know very little about most of the people who will be there.”
Which meant that of course he was going to agree to go to T’ryn’s party with her. F’drel didn’t particularly want to go to T’ryn’s party — he knew how many people? Mylorah, T’ryn himself, and A’tay? It’s not like he’d really talked to A’tay since Thallyath’s Flight, so that could easily be awkward. N’mor would certainly be there, and maybe Z’rin, which F’drel didn’t much want to deal with. Z’rin had joined him for lunch a few times to ‘catch up,’ which was awkward enough, but F’drel had never properly met N’mor, and while the man was weyrbred, he was also a bronzerider and F’drel was a bit reluctant to have to address the inevitable ‘hi, nice to meet you, I had sex with your mate, but it was our dragons so it’s okay’ when they were eventually formally introduced. And then R’nd would be there, and that would be awkward because F’drel wasn’t overly well-inclined towards the man since Mylorah wasn’t sure of him, and then R’nd’s mate, and then R’nd’s sister and all the Holder family. Overall far too many unknown people for F’drel to feel comfortable about.
Still, Mylorah was right about one thing; if he went, Halomirth would be able to bring him back whenever he (well, Mylorah) wanted. He wouldn’t be stuck there. Miri probably wouldn’t even complain too much about leaving friends because it would be for Mylorah, not just him being antisocial. And if he hung back, it would be acceptable because he was just he tag-along ride.
“I’ll take you there, I’ll stay with you, and I’ll bring you home when you decide to leave,” F’drel said seriously. “I won’t leave you to go alone. Though if you have any advice for me, please share, I know very little about most of the people who will be there.”