27.Oct.16, 03:04 PM
It shouldn't be possible to be this sad.
It feels like my heart has been ripped from my chest - am I being dramatic? I know I'm not shy girl anymore but I am also sure that I can't carry on...
Although I've run out of tears. I didn't know that was even possible.
Of course, I wouldn't have said a giant green dragon coming to steal me away from my home was possible either & yet that happened all the same.
Why?
I've asked this before and I still don't have any answers. The people at this, this Weyr insist it is important. Vital even if you can believe it? I don't. I can't accept what they are saying is the whole and complete truth. Especially as everything else...
No, I don't trust them.
Yet...
I had a dream last night or perhaps a memory would be more accurate. I was sat with my sister and we were listening to a Harper, it was an old story and it mentioned Thread - horrifying, destructive and the only defense available in the form to of the dragons and their riders. I remembered it vividly this morning - all day actually and it meant I got punished for not paying proper attention to the chores I was assigned.
Am I wrong? Is there some good in these people? I know my mother would have once said no one is ever wholly evil or bad but she never had to deal with a situation like this one.
I've realized I don't know what to do...
It feels like my heart has been ripped from my chest - am I being dramatic? I know I'm not shy girl anymore but I am also sure that I can't carry on...
Although I've run out of tears. I didn't know that was even possible.
Of course, I wouldn't have said a giant green dragon coming to steal me away from my home was possible either & yet that happened all the same.
Why?
I've asked this before and I still don't have any answers. The people at this, this Weyr insist it is important. Vital even if you can believe it? I don't. I can't accept what they are saying is the whole and complete truth. Especially as everything else...
No, I don't trust them.
Yet...
I had a dream last night or perhaps a memory would be more accurate. I was sat with my sister and we were listening to a Harper, it was an old story and it mentioned Thread - horrifying, destructive and the only defense available in the form to of the dragons and their riders. I remembered it vividly this morning - all day actually and it meant I got punished for not paying proper attention to the chores I was assigned.
Am I wrong? Is there some good in these people? I know my mother would have once said no one is ever wholly evil or bad but she never had to deal with a situation like this one.
I've realized I don't know what to do...