27.Nov.20, 08:06 PM
At first she was satisfied with his reaction, then disappointed that he hadn’t noticed Tazikel in the Stands at the Telgar Hatchings, and then hurt. It didn’t matter that he quickly tried to take it back to some degree with an apology and stating for a second time she was wonderful. Her brother didn’t trust her and thought she was a whore for lords. There was a time she would have been able to laugh it off and tell K’dar to stop worrying and tease him about something silly he’d done instead but realising exactly what a portion of that stuffy world thought of her had messed with her head. She’d had a good cry about it, thought about leaving Tazikel behind, and then decided to beat those bitches at their own game and prove she belonged wherever she wanted to. Their comments didn’t bother her now but coming from family?
She stared at the mugs and K’dar’s attempt to get her to smile or maybe to at least acknowledge him with that little tap before he tried to shift the entire conversation to something he thought resembled jovial. But she couldn’t follow suit as she softly whispered, “Tazikel is a true gentleman. He’s kind and funny and has never looked down on me. His brother’s wife has become a friend and they both put me in these restricting but beautiful dresses to help me belong in the eyes of others yet when he’s here, he doesn’t care about his clothes and sits on the ground with me or lies on the grass as we talk about anything. And he’s a wonderful dancer that makes me forget anyone else is around. I don’t want to learn any ways to hurt him and if I was capable of giving my love to only one person, it would probably be him.” Commitment issues were inherited from her dad and Mylorah didn’t think she’d ever be able to settle down with one person as there were too many people to give her varying forms of love to but Tazikel was at the top of the list of men that could win her heart entirely if he wanted it and she was willing to let go.
“But you won’t believe me. You’re one of the most important people to matter yet you clearly believe the rumours.” She hated how her vision was immediately blurring with tears and she sniffed and looked up at the ceiling to keep them from falling. How could he? It was probably her own fault. She’d always viewed sex as something to enjoy with friends and wasn’t shy about flirting. Of course K’dar would think she’d sleep with every lord that smiled at her since it was practically what she did with friends she made in the Weyr.
She stared at the mugs and K’dar’s attempt to get her to smile or maybe to at least acknowledge him with that little tap before he tried to shift the entire conversation to something he thought resembled jovial. But she couldn’t follow suit as she softly whispered, “Tazikel is a true gentleman. He’s kind and funny and has never looked down on me. His brother’s wife has become a friend and they both put me in these restricting but beautiful dresses to help me belong in the eyes of others yet when he’s here, he doesn’t care about his clothes and sits on the ground with me or lies on the grass as we talk about anything. And he’s a wonderful dancer that makes me forget anyone else is around. I don’t want to learn any ways to hurt him and if I was capable of giving my love to only one person, it would probably be him.” Commitment issues were inherited from her dad and Mylorah didn’t think she’d ever be able to settle down with one person as there were too many people to give her varying forms of love to but Tazikel was at the top of the list of men that could win her heart entirely if he wanted it and she was willing to let go.
“But you won’t believe me. You’re one of the most important people to matter yet you clearly believe the rumours.” She hated how her vision was immediately blurring with tears and she sniffed and looked up at the ceiling to keep them from falling. How could he? It was probably her own fault. She’d always viewed sex as something to enjoy with friends and wasn’t shy about flirting. Of course K’dar would think she’d sleep with every lord that smiled at her since it was practically what she did with friends she made in the Weyr.