17.Mar.12, 03:05 AM
Valerian took a moment to digest all that he was told though as lost in his thoughts as he was, he did manage a nod of thanks to Larrikith when she turned the beast so he could continue working. It was only due to his distraction over what had been said that the dragon didn't get a glare or a comment about her being so helpful in making him miserable with the task. Absently, he went through the motions he was taught, seeing but not at all focused on what he did.
You were never lonely. Was he lonely now? When he was younger his sisters doted on him constantly until he moved to Harper Hall and it was easy enough to confess to himself that he had missed them back then and enjoyed their brief and sporadic reunions over the turns but he had never felt envious of those he entertained that had a sweetheart or brats swarming around them. Even now, in an unfamiliar land surrounded by people that were either used to a new way of living or resented being brought into such a surreal existence against their will Valerian wasn't sure if he was truly lonely. He always enjoyed his own company and the times he performed was enough to satisfy any silly desire to be with people. But he was making friends now and if he was ever alone, it was by choice.
So if he was alone by choice and he Impressed, then he would never be alone again because he would have a physical and mental companion always there with him. Maybe Impressing wasn't such a grand idea after all. All the work that went into taking care of the beast didn't seem so bad compared to never being alone with his thoughts or wandering off in a fit of selfishness to nap somewhere or work on a song. Would that line of thought even matter to him after Impressing? He had heard that finding your lifemate was a sense of completion and even B'jin had said he couldn't imagine a life without Larrikith now that he had her when he had had a wonderful and pampered life before her.
Knowing he was expected to say something since he always had a comment about everything and to stay silent now would only lead to being questioned, Valerian shook off his moping thoughts and turned his newly focused gaze from dragon to rider and back. "So, who actually has it worse with you two? I imagine you do since you have to put up with B'jin's constant optimistic outlook on everything."
You were never lonely. Was he lonely now? When he was younger his sisters doted on him constantly until he moved to Harper Hall and it was easy enough to confess to himself that he had missed them back then and enjoyed their brief and sporadic reunions over the turns but he had never felt envious of those he entertained that had a sweetheart or brats swarming around them. Even now, in an unfamiliar land surrounded by people that were either used to a new way of living or resented being brought into such a surreal existence against their will Valerian wasn't sure if he was truly lonely. He always enjoyed his own company and the times he performed was enough to satisfy any silly desire to be with people. But he was making friends now and if he was ever alone, it was by choice.
So if he was alone by choice and he Impressed, then he would never be alone again because he would have a physical and mental companion always there with him. Maybe Impressing wasn't such a grand idea after all. All the work that went into taking care of the beast didn't seem so bad compared to never being alone with his thoughts or wandering off in a fit of selfishness to nap somewhere or work on a song. Would that line of thought even matter to him after Impressing? He had heard that finding your lifemate was a sense of completion and even B'jin had said he couldn't imagine a life without Larrikith now that he had her when he had had a wonderful and pampered life before her.
Knowing he was expected to say something since he always had a comment about everything and to stay silent now would only lead to being questioned, Valerian shook off his moping thoughts and turned his newly focused gaze from dragon to rider and back. "So, who actually has it worse with you two? I imagine you do since you have to put up with B'jin's constant optimistic outlook on everything."