13.Jun.21, 11:17 AM
K’tir climbed up Ghaeth purely on muscle memory. It hadn’t been the first time he’d done it since losing his vision but it was the first time they were going on a small trip from ledge to Lower Bowl. He was thankful for the years of experience of mounting and dismounting his dragon and that it still felt normal to do and to sit atop the gentle beast. The other times he had sat there, the tears fell silently and neither of them spoke. It was still a lot to process from the attack, to his vision, and now the loss of his daughter. Ghaeth was the only thing keeping him somewhat sane and continuing on. Kajiran truly deserved a better father than the sorry excuse of a man he had become. But that was how Ghaeth had kept him from doing something stupid. He still had a child to care for and be a role model for.
Those thoughts were always with him anymore. If he wasn’t wallowing in self-pity, he was trying to keep positive for his son. The positivity was hard to do most days and it was why they were going for a brief glide before sitting out in the Bowl to soak up some sun. That was easy enough to do on their ledge but K’tir hadn’t left their weyr all that much since returning from the infirmary months earlier. It would do to get out and maybe see people… except he couldn’t see them, could he?
The usual anger and pity swelled but K’tir tried not to let it consume him this time as Ghaeth landed gently on the ground. He slid down the dragon’s side and stumbled a little as he didn’t pay enough attention to the timing and where the ground would be. He kept his balance but frowned at the mistake as he took a few steps away from Ghaeth. He glanced around, trying as always to find out if he could see anything. Why he thought being in a new location would change how he could vaguely make out white shapes of larger objects or something very close to him into something real was just another way to torture himself but he still did it.
And he still saw nothing but the vaguely dragon-shaped blob behind him. With a sigh, he sat down where he stood and after a moment laid on his back to stare up at the bright sky. “Don’t stare at the sun… you’ll go blind,” he mumbled with a bitter laugh.
Those thoughts were always with him anymore. If he wasn’t wallowing in self-pity, he was trying to keep positive for his son. The positivity was hard to do most days and it was why they were going for a brief glide before sitting out in the Bowl to soak up some sun. That was easy enough to do on their ledge but K’tir hadn’t left their weyr all that much since returning from the infirmary months earlier. It would do to get out and maybe see people… except he couldn’t see them, could he?
The usual anger and pity swelled but K’tir tried not to let it consume him this time as Ghaeth landed gently on the ground. He slid down the dragon’s side and stumbled a little as he didn’t pay enough attention to the timing and where the ground would be. He kept his balance but frowned at the mistake as he took a few steps away from Ghaeth. He glanced around, trying as always to find out if he could see anything. Why he thought being in a new location would change how he could vaguely make out white shapes of larger objects or something very close to him into something real was just another way to torture himself but he still did it.
And he still saw nothing but the vaguely dragon-shaped blob behind him. With a sigh, he sat down where he stood and after a moment laid on his back to stare up at the bright sky. “Don’t stare at the sun… you’ll go blind,” he mumbled with a bitter laugh.