05.Jun.12, 10:31 PM
I'shan set his jaw. "...I do see him, though," he protested. Rarely, of course, but he did! He went to visit a couple times per season, always casual visits to the mother just to 'catch up'. He'd watch the boy out of the corner of his eye for a few minutes and maybe offer to play for a little while, but that was just it. He was mom's cool friend, and that was it! That's all he needed to be, right?
He inhaled and tried to suppress his distaste. "I can't," he said hastily. "I'd just be in the way. I have this really demanding relationship, I'm a searchrider..." And I'm AWESOME at making excuses, too! There was one overriding issue, though. He just didn't want to.
He just didn't want to. Why should he? He was a rider. The mother could dump the kid off in creche if she didn't want the kid either! He was the product of a flight, something neither parent could be held responsible for. He had no desire to get any more involved with the boy than he already was, but Jazira looked like she was going to push the issue. Could he really argue? She had personal reasons to be concerned. She was projecting her problems onto someone else, trying to fix something in someone else that she couldn't fix in herself.
He frowned. He didn't want his life to change, and getting involved with the kid would do exactly that. He crossed his arms. "I dunno, Jazira," he mumbled. "It's just....not something I want to be a part of. I'd be a terrible father, and I...it'll turn my life upside down, Jazira. It's not like I ran off and intentionally had a one-night stand or something..."
He inhaled and tried to suppress his distaste. "I can't," he said hastily. "I'd just be in the way. I have this really demanding relationship, I'm a searchrider..." And I'm AWESOME at making excuses, too! There was one overriding issue, though. He just didn't want to.
He just didn't want to. Why should he? He was a rider. The mother could dump the kid off in creche if she didn't want the kid either! He was the product of a flight, something neither parent could be held responsible for. He had no desire to get any more involved with the boy than he already was, but Jazira looked like she was going to push the issue. Could he really argue? She had personal reasons to be concerned. She was projecting her problems onto someone else, trying to fix something in someone else that she couldn't fix in herself.
He frowned. He didn't want his life to change, and getting involved with the kid would do exactly that. He crossed his arms. "I dunno, Jazira," he mumbled. "It's just....not something I want to be a part of. I'd be a terrible father, and I...it'll turn my life upside down, Jazira. It's not like I ran off and intentionally had a one-night stand or something..."