17.Jun.22, 11:49 AM
743.06.15
I didn't want to do an entry about the gold that died earlier this month, I was trying not to think about it, trying not to think about other things, trying to tell myself it was an isolated incident and not part of something else. It might still be a separate thing, but now I don't know. I feel horrible for not staying longer, but I don't think anyone else is upset about me leaving. Zory and Gail... I just kept seeing T'ryn and I kept seeing flashes of my own attack and my eye was hurting... It's not even in my face anymore, how could it hurt?! I thought the phantom pains were supposed to have gone away when I got used to things.
I can't even be there to help T'ryn. I left Lady with him at least, Zory's flitter is still too hurt and when she manages to get away from the dragonhealer she just wants to try and cuddle Zory anyway. Sir's with me, Kor'is is around and trying to help... it's something. Mal is distraught and worried, but she can't do anything about it except sulk. I'll probably be grabbing the twins to cuddle and keep myself busy once Kor'is goes or once their grandparents try to return them, whichever happens first.
I hate that all I can do is worry about what's going to happen next.
I didn't want to do an entry about the gold that died earlier this month, I was trying not to think about it, trying not to think about other things, trying to tell myself it was an isolated incident and not part of something else. It might still be a separate thing, but now I don't know. I feel horrible for not staying longer, but I don't think anyone else is upset about me leaving. Zory and Gail... I just kept seeing T'ryn and I kept seeing flashes of my own attack and my eye was hurting... It's not even in my face anymore, how could it hurt?! I thought the phantom pains were supposed to have gone away when I got used to things.
I can't even be there to help T'ryn. I left Lady with him at least, Zory's flitter is still too hurt and when she manages to get away from the dragonhealer she just wants to try and cuddle Zory anyway. Sir's with me, Kor'is is around and trying to help... it's something. Mal is distraught and worried, but she can't do anything about it except sulk. I'll probably be grabbing the twins to cuddle and keep myself busy once Kor'is goes or once their grandparents try to return them, whichever happens first.
I hate that all I can do is worry about what's going to happen next.