24.Jun.21, 06:08 PM
742.06.24
The twins are with the wet nurse right now, T'ryn is visiting someone, Yfris is at the hold, Kor'is is out, Mal is stretching her wings. It's just me and the flitters.
What the fuck do I even do?
It feels like I've been staring at my notebook forever but nothing is happening. I keep trying to rub my eye to get it to focus but... well that's not going to happen.
Maybe if I nap I'll feel something, more awake, more here, more alive. But I've been napping a lot lately whenever the twins gave me a chance. I'm hoping that if I just write anything at all down it will help, but I don't even know what I need help with.
I should probably go check on the twins, they're still mine, I'm still their mother even if I can't... no. I can take care of them. That's why they have a wet nurse. The don't have a wet nurse because I can't take care of them, I'm just taking care of them by making sure they have what they need. At least that's what people have been telling me. Maybe if I repeat it enough I'll believe it too.
I think I'll just take another nap.
The twins are with the wet nurse right now, T'ryn is visiting someone, Yfris is at the hold, Kor'is is out, Mal is stretching her wings. It's just me and the flitters.
What the fuck do I even do?
It feels like I've been staring at my notebook forever but nothing is happening. I keep trying to rub my eye to get it to focus but... well that's not going to happen.
Maybe if I nap I'll feel something, more awake, more here, more alive. But I've been napping a lot lately whenever the twins gave me a chance. I'm hoping that if I just write anything at all down it will help, but I don't even know what I need help with.
I should probably go check on the twins, they're still mine, I'm still their mother even if I can't... no. I can take care of them. That's why they have a wet nurse. The don't have a wet nurse because I can't take care of them, I'm just taking care of them by making sure they have what they need. At least that's what people have been telling me. Maybe if I repeat it enough I'll believe it too.
I think I'll just take another nap.