21.Jul.13, 05:23 AM
The outburst of anger was kind of expected considering how much they had all longed to Impress and would talk about all the details of it playing out. Still, a little support over his decision would have been nice but Ryvian knew he’d never get that over such a thing. He wasn’t even given a chance to counter her comment about when she Impressed! He wanted to point out he would mope a bit but only because he’d have to wait months before he could flirt with her again. It wasn’t like she ever gave in outside of the one time in a tension-filled tub but there was always the hint of hope that one day she would want him. If she Impressed, there wasn’t even the hope to keep him going so the flirting had to go entirely on hold.
Feeling as pathetic as he was accused of being, Ryvian rolled over onto his other side, so he faced away from the friend he couldn’t look at. She was judging him, and rightfully so. He judged himself constantly as well since the moment the last hatchling had waddled out of its shell and left with someone else. She wasn’t going to understand, no one could. Bonds existed on so many levels, Ryvian understood that, but none were like that of twins. Finally, with a deep shuddering intake of breath and a slow release seconds later, Ryvian finally gave voice to the true issue.
“He’s gone, Indivara. A dragon took him away from me. I’ve been replaced and he doesn’t need me anymore. I still need him, though.” Tears started to well up but he refused to let them fall, dashing them away with an index finger. “He was all I had.” He’d probably end up kicked out of the current hut as well. His parents died? Well, can’t stay in a family-sized hut anymore! His brother is now gone? Well, can’t stay in a large bed in a decent hut anymore! He’d probably be relegated to a closet in the Weyrfolk Hall if he was lucky. That seemed about right as to where they put rejected Candidates and orphans.
Feeling as pathetic as he was accused of being, Ryvian rolled over onto his other side, so he faced away from the friend he couldn’t look at. She was judging him, and rightfully so. He judged himself constantly as well since the moment the last hatchling had waddled out of its shell and left with someone else. She wasn’t going to understand, no one could. Bonds existed on so many levels, Ryvian understood that, but none were like that of twins. Finally, with a deep shuddering intake of breath and a slow release seconds later, Ryvian finally gave voice to the true issue.
“He’s gone, Indivara. A dragon took him away from me. I’ve been replaced and he doesn’t need me anymore. I still need him, though.” Tears started to well up but he refused to let them fall, dashing them away with an index finger. “He was all I had.” He’d probably end up kicked out of the current hut as well. His parents died? Well, can’t stay in a family-sized hut anymore! His brother is now gone? Well, can’t stay in a large bed in a decent hut anymore! He’d probably be relegated to a closet in the Weyrfolk Hall if he was lucky. That seemed about right as to where they put rejected Candidates and orphans.