27.Aug.12, 03:31 PM
The turmoil of his emotions threatened to break forth and suffocate him. With each word Jada spoke, he died a little more inside. He was being made to see, to remember, to face that which was too painful. He did not want to see anything.
Being stolen, losing family, losing dragons, the plague, being alone and fearful, sickness, death, survival....pain.
As Jada kept speaking, his mind threatened to break with each passing word. Grabbing his head in his hands finally, his mask shattered for a brief instant. The torment in his mind shown brightly upon his face. Shutting his eyes tightly, he grabbed hold of his head hoping it would not burst.
He refused to let the tears come. The rage he fought down furiously. He would not do that to Jada again. He couldn't. She had been so kind. When she asked what she could do for him his eyes searched for hers and begged her to understand and to not hate him for what he was about to ask.
"Please." His voice begged in a whisper. "Please just leave me alone."
With every bit of will-power he had left, he screamed in his own mind and shoved his torment down again. The mask this time was much harder to put back into place. When he felt 'secure' he dropped his hands from his head and rested them upon his knees as he sat there with his eyes lowered and his head looking down at his bear feet. The obvious torment that had shown so clearly upon his face a moment before could no longer be seen.
He sighed. Everything would be okay.
Being stolen, losing family, losing dragons, the plague, being alone and fearful, sickness, death, survival....pain.
As Jada kept speaking, his mind threatened to break with each passing word. Grabbing his head in his hands finally, his mask shattered for a brief instant. The torment in his mind shown brightly upon his face. Shutting his eyes tightly, he grabbed hold of his head hoping it would not burst.
He refused to let the tears come. The rage he fought down furiously. He would not do that to Jada again. He couldn't. She had been so kind. When she asked what she could do for him his eyes searched for hers and begged her to understand and to not hate him for what he was about to ask.
"Please." His voice begged in a whisper. "Please just leave me alone."
With every bit of will-power he had left, he screamed in his own mind and shoved his torment down again. The mask this time was much harder to put back into place. When he felt 'secure' he dropped his hands from his head and rested them upon his knees as he sat there with his eyes lowered and his head looking down at his bear feet. The obvious torment that had shown so clearly upon his face a moment before could no longer be seen.
He sighed. Everything would be okay.