05.Sep.12, 02:36 AM
They might change people but he was still Valerian and more than just a dragonrider. In fact, Valerian suspected he was more educated and properly trained than ten riders combined. He was something more… but not necessarily better. He sniffled once, willing the tears away as Talian hugged him once more, though it was hard given how his friend’s kindness seemed to urge Valerian closer to crying than away. Maybe he was also broken if sweet words sent him to tears. “It won’t happen again,” he promised quietly but with the determination coated on each word, “not by me and especially not to you by me. I’d make sure you were always safe from their… our dirty hands but then you’d be stuck with me day and night. Most would say you were being punished for that.”
After a pause that was just long enough for Valerian to argue with himself, he went ahead and addressed the matter of forgiveness, “thank you for forgiving me, though I don’t think I deserve it and it doesn’t solve anything. I know you mean it though and that helps me a bit.” He wanted to help Talian though, but again, he had no idea how to deal with this situation. “I want to help you feel something again but I don’t know how. For now, I’ll hope you find someone better and smarter that does make you feel something again.” He wrapped his hands gently around his friend, careful not to spook Talian and give him any need of fear. Valerian wanted to be that better and smarter person but he wasn’t delusional enough to believe he could be so he didn’t even joke about practising in bed together until Talian enjoyed himself once more. He had clearly been spending too much time with Erisi if his mind kept wandering to sex and making light of a serious situation.
After a pause that was just long enough for Valerian to argue with himself, he went ahead and addressed the matter of forgiveness, “thank you for forgiving me, though I don’t think I deserve it and it doesn’t solve anything. I know you mean it though and that helps me a bit.” He wanted to help Talian though, but again, he had no idea how to deal with this situation. “I want to help you feel something again but I don’t know how. For now, I’ll hope you find someone better and smarter that does make you feel something again.” He wrapped his hands gently around his friend, careful not to spook Talian and give him any need of fear. Valerian wanted to be that better and smarter person but he wasn’t delusional enough to believe he could be so he didn’t even joke about practising in bed together until Talian enjoyed himself once more. He had clearly been spending too much time with Erisi if his mind kept wandering to sex and making light of a serious situation.