03.Sep.12, 07:08 AM
Talian cringed a little bit, just as much in shame as in fear. He wanted that hug. He wanted it very badly. But all he could feel or see right then was that horrid, evil greenrider.
Instead of receiving what he wanted so badly, Talian refused to tear his eyes from the floorboards. He swallowed hard, his throat constricted, as if it was trying to stop him from speaking words that must not be spoken. How could he, though? Now Valerian knew his terrible secret, and shards! Valerian seemed to have pieced it together beforehand, suspecting perhaps because of Talian's odd behavior and strange reactions.
Tal should have been overwhelmed with joy to have a chance to sleep with Valerian without consequences. It could have been guilt-free fun, no one's fault. Now, he felt like they were both at fault.
After a moment of fighting, he found his words again. "The first time w-wasn't because of a flight, Val..." he whimpered. Val. He'd returned to the familiar term, not the full name. "I...I don't know what to do. He said if I ever told anyone, he'd do it again!" he sobbed. There were tears in his voice, but still none in his eyes.
He suddenly flung himself at Valerian, stumbling to his feet and throwing himself into the harper like a lump. "Val!" he whimpered. "I...I wish it could have been something special! You're my dearest friend, and I...and I..." And I what? And I what?
Talian couldn't find words, so finally he just erupted into the tears that he'd held back for far too long. He just wept shamelessly into his friend's shoulder.
Instead of receiving what he wanted so badly, Talian refused to tear his eyes from the floorboards. He swallowed hard, his throat constricted, as if it was trying to stop him from speaking words that must not be spoken. How could he, though? Now Valerian knew his terrible secret, and shards! Valerian seemed to have pieced it together beforehand, suspecting perhaps because of Talian's odd behavior and strange reactions.
Tal should have been overwhelmed with joy to have a chance to sleep with Valerian without consequences. It could have been guilt-free fun, no one's fault. Now, he felt like they were both at fault.
After a moment of fighting, he found his words again. "The first time w-wasn't because of a flight, Val..." he whimpered. Val. He'd returned to the familiar term, not the full name. "I...I don't know what to do. He said if I ever told anyone, he'd do it again!" he sobbed. There were tears in his voice, but still none in his eyes.
He suddenly flung himself at Valerian, stumbling to his feet and throwing himself into the harper like a lump. "Val!" he whimpered. "I...I wish it could have been something special! You're my dearest friend, and I...and I..." And I what? And I what?
Talian couldn't find words, so finally he just erupted into the tears that he'd held back for far too long. He just wept shamelessly into his friend's shoulder.