08.May.21, 09:10 AM
When N’mor finally found his words, Z’rin hadn’t been expecting them and what they implied and the shock showed. Of course he was thrilled that his younger lover was starting to feel a stronger urge to raise a family together as it was something Z’rin had wanted for a while but could tell it was best not to press it. He smiled at N’mor and nodded, “of course it does.”
It didn’t, though.
Z’rin hated the idea. There was so much wrong with it. Iliyith Flew about every eighteen months and was currently on the Sands so it would be over two years before another child. That was also assuming Helyna fell pregnant from the one time together. Just because she did on their first Flight didn’t mean it would happen again so it could be closer to four years or more. Not to mention Z’rin didn’t trust Helyna. She had kept Vondlyn from his father and likely would have continued to do so except she no doubt had some selfish reason for sharing; likely overworked and exhausted. He would also bet everything he owned that Helyna wouldn’t let them raise the child. Her own mate loved kids and it was easy to say how bad it would be to keep the children from each other so they should be raised together—by her and Tala.
The easier and quicker choice was for Z’rin to take up with a woman that wouldn’t mind having a child for them to raise and she could be as involved as little or as much as she wanted. Of course they could also take one of the unwanted kids from the crèche.
But he didn’t say any of that. N’mor was excited about his idea and Z’rin would support him and hope the goldrider wasn’t a complete heartless bitch and it would work out. “It certainly doesn’t hurt to speak with her about it.”
It didn’t, though.
Z’rin hated the idea. There was so much wrong with it. Iliyith Flew about every eighteen months and was currently on the Sands so it would be over two years before another child. That was also assuming Helyna fell pregnant from the one time together. Just because she did on their first Flight didn’t mean it would happen again so it could be closer to four years or more. Not to mention Z’rin didn’t trust Helyna. She had kept Vondlyn from his father and likely would have continued to do so except she no doubt had some selfish reason for sharing; likely overworked and exhausted. He would also bet everything he owned that Helyna wouldn’t let them raise the child. Her own mate loved kids and it was easy to say how bad it would be to keep the children from each other so they should be raised together—by her and Tala.
The easier and quicker choice was for Z’rin to take up with a woman that wouldn’t mind having a child for them to raise and she could be as involved as little or as much as she wanted. Of course they could also take one of the unwanted kids from the crèche.
But he didn’t say any of that. N’mor was excited about his idea and Z’rin would support him and hope the goldrider wasn’t a complete heartless bitch and it would work out. “It certainly doesn’t hurt to speak with her about it.”