10.Jan.20, 10:42 AM
Cazan couldn't help but feel a lot of this awkwardness was her fault and she wanted to desperately apologize to T'ryn for having to put with her and simultaneously thank the man for his seemingly endless patience. Hopefully her tendency to latch onto things and worry them like a dog with bone wouldn't wear too much on him. She tried to focus on his words, all of them, as she listened quietly. She tried to give herself a moment to let it all sink in before she let her brain run wild with ideas. It was good that he didn't want to push and Cazan appreciated it immensely, and it was nice that he seemed willing to more or less let her set the pace for things or just see how they went. That he was fine with just the kissing was probably the part that relieved her the most though, especially since she wasn't exactly very experienced.
She wasn't sure if she wanted to tell T'ryn about the ex boyfriend, he would normally not be noteworthy or worth mention at all except that she'd slept with him once. And that would have made him definitely not worth mentioning to anyone back home since she hadn't continued the relationship at all, much less married him. But this was the Weyr and from everything Cazan had learned in her admittedly short time there, people were generally more open about that sort of thing here.
"Yes it would be nice," she said as she nodded in agreement. She reached for his hand to help pull herself closer to the man as she continued to babble, "I'm pretty sure I'm making this more... difficult than it should be. Sorry, I don't really have much experience. Did things once with a boyfriend long ago, but it wasn't a very... educational experience." That seemed to be a polite enough way to put it, she thought as she blushed. Hopefully T'ryn wouldn't think any less of her for it. Either way he was right there, so tantalizingly close and kissing absolutely would be nice right then. So she wrapped her arms around him and pulled him back in for more of that delicious thought-stopping sensation, letting out a soft pleased sigh as all of the tension that had been building in her back and shoulders eased with the simple gesture of affection. When she needed to pause to catch her breath she couldn't help but smile. "One more reason to look forward to your visits, honestly."
She wasn't sure if she wanted to tell T'ryn about the ex boyfriend, he would normally not be noteworthy or worth mention at all except that she'd slept with him once. And that would have made him definitely not worth mentioning to anyone back home since she hadn't continued the relationship at all, much less married him. But this was the Weyr and from everything Cazan had learned in her admittedly short time there, people were generally more open about that sort of thing here.
"Yes it would be nice," she said as she nodded in agreement. She reached for his hand to help pull herself closer to the man as she continued to babble, "I'm pretty sure I'm making this more... difficult than it should be. Sorry, I don't really have much experience. Did things once with a boyfriend long ago, but it wasn't a very... educational experience." That seemed to be a polite enough way to put it, she thought as she blushed. Hopefully T'ryn wouldn't think any less of her for it. Either way he was right there, so tantalizingly close and kissing absolutely would be nice right then. So she wrapped her arms around him and pulled him back in for more of that delicious thought-stopping sensation, letting out a soft pleased sigh as all of the tension that had been building in her back and shoulders eased with the simple gesture of affection. When she needed to pause to catch her breath she couldn't help but smile. "One more reason to look forward to your visits, honestly."