09.Jan.20, 02:37 AM
T'ryn nodded at the explanation that made some sense to him and matched somewhat with what he was creating as the narrative to the crazy story he was starring in. He was also relieved to hear that she actually did have a twin brother since that meant all the family stories told by her had to be true and while he was being lied to about who he was usually speaking with, at least every word out of her mouth hadn't been made up.
Still, he quietly grabbed the second stool and sat down, hunched over, resting his head in his hands. He still needed to think about what everything meant as there was so much to unpack. "I just need a moment," he mumbled in explanation. Cazelerias existed but he'd never met the man, which was fine--especially if he was as lazy and carefree as Cazan made him sound. T'ryn only knew the Cazan version of her brother and had a feeling meeting the actual man would be a bit disappointing now.
He already knew he was fine with her dressing as a man to get the training she wanted and to continue doing what she loved. It made him sad that she had to do that but maybe M'ris would let her continue to stay at the Weyr and as herself to allow Cazan more freedom. He didn't mention that as an option, especially since he wasn't even sure she wanted to stay. It sounded like maybe she did but it could have also been viewed as her wanting to get out a lot sooner to avoid their current mess.
And that mess... T'ryn hated how relieved he was that it was Cazan he had been with. He thought he was fine with the idea of a man doing it, and maybe he still was, but his focus was currently on the specific detail of it being Cazan and not Cazelerias. It didn't matter that he had only seen her as herself once since her disguised self seemed to still have the same sparkling personality. So while he was deceived, there was a good reason for it, and he still got to know Cazan overall.
All of the pieces had been righted and T'ryn was assembling them back together to make a cohesive picture."Okay, so," he looked up at Cazan again, knowing it was his turn to say something more, react in some way, and get them out of this moment that he chose to believe Cazan hated as much as he did. "Being lied to and deceived hurts. It sucks a lot but I still get why you're doing it and I'm glad you told me now when we've only known each other a few weeks instead of down the line or I accidentally discover it on my own." That would have led to a very different conclusion, even with all of the same reasons presented.
"Before you ask, I'll keep your secret for you, Caz." At least he had always called her by that nickname that fit both her and her brother's names. There was less of a chance to slip up subconsciously if he stuck with it.
Still, he quietly grabbed the second stool and sat down, hunched over, resting his head in his hands. He still needed to think about what everything meant as there was so much to unpack. "I just need a moment," he mumbled in explanation. Cazelerias existed but he'd never met the man, which was fine--especially if he was as lazy and carefree as Cazan made him sound. T'ryn only knew the Cazan version of her brother and had a feeling meeting the actual man would be a bit disappointing now.
He already knew he was fine with her dressing as a man to get the training she wanted and to continue doing what she loved. It made him sad that she had to do that but maybe M'ris would let her continue to stay at the Weyr and as herself to allow Cazan more freedom. He didn't mention that as an option, especially since he wasn't even sure she wanted to stay. It sounded like maybe she did but it could have also been viewed as her wanting to get out a lot sooner to avoid their current mess.
And that mess... T'ryn hated how relieved he was that it was Cazan he had been with. He thought he was fine with the idea of a man doing it, and maybe he still was, but his focus was currently on the specific detail of it being Cazan and not Cazelerias. It didn't matter that he had only seen her as herself once since her disguised self seemed to still have the same sparkling personality. So while he was deceived, there was a good reason for it, and he still got to know Cazan overall.
All of the pieces had been righted and T'ryn was assembling them back together to make a cohesive picture."Okay, so," he looked up at Cazan again, knowing it was his turn to say something more, react in some way, and get them out of this moment that he chose to believe Cazan hated as much as he did. "Being lied to and deceived hurts. It sucks a lot but I still get why you're doing it and I'm glad you told me now when we've only known each other a few weeks instead of down the line or I accidentally discover it on my own." That would have led to a very different conclusion, even with all of the same reasons presented.
"Before you ask, I'll keep your secret for you, Caz." At least he had always called her by that nickname that fit both her and her brother's names. There was less of a chance to slip up subconsciously if he stuck with it.