09.Sep.19, 10:42 PM
If F’drel had been thinking at all he would have expected R’dal’s reaction, but as it stood he was too lost in his own head; he flinched noticeably when R’dal first touched him. Thankfully the fact it was R’dal, someone safe, registered fairly quickly, and F’drel managed to relax into the hug, though he couldn’t stop himself from shaking.
“I want you to be careful for yourself, not for me,” F’drel said quietly, his cheek pressed to R’dal’s head. His breath moved R’dal’s hair when he spoke, tickling his face. He kept talking anyway.
“I can’t tell you here, but maybe some other time…” he trailed off, uncertain. Talking about it sounded awful, but despite what R’dal said about doing better F’drel didn’t think he’d truly be able to stick to it without understanding just what people were willing to do to others - liked doing, even. Hopefully R’dal would never get first hand experience to help him understand, but he had to get a better idea than he currently had.
He wouldn’t be hearing of it at the Gather, in any case. There was no way F’drel could speak of these things in public, especially since many of the people involved were possibly at the Gather. The thought made F’drel’s blood run cold; what if any of his siblings encountered any of the lords of Nabol? Any of them could have decided to attend the Gather. What if they saw his siblings and approached them? What if he was around?
“I need to find my sisters,” F’drel said suddenly, pulling away from R’dal and out of the hug. Why had he left them alone? Stupid, stupid greenrider, how could he berate R’dal when he’d also been an idiot? He really was terrible.
“I want you to be careful for yourself, not for me,” F’drel said quietly, his cheek pressed to R’dal’s head. His breath moved R’dal’s hair when he spoke, tickling his face. He kept talking anyway.
“I can’t tell you here, but maybe some other time…” he trailed off, uncertain. Talking about it sounded awful, but despite what R’dal said about doing better F’drel didn’t think he’d truly be able to stick to it without understanding just what people were willing to do to others - liked doing, even. Hopefully R’dal would never get first hand experience to help him understand, but he had to get a better idea than he currently had.
He wouldn’t be hearing of it at the Gather, in any case. There was no way F’drel could speak of these things in public, especially since many of the people involved were possibly at the Gather. The thought made F’drel’s blood run cold; what if any of his siblings encountered any of the lords of Nabol? Any of them could have decided to attend the Gather. What if they saw his siblings and approached them? What if he was around?
“I need to find my sisters,” F’drel said suddenly, pulling away from R’dal and out of the hug. Why had he left them alone? Stupid, stupid greenrider, how could he berate R’dal when he’d also been an idiot? He really was terrible.