31.Mar.19, 04:25 AM
“I don’t really mind,” R’dal whispered and removed his hand from F’drel’s knee. He could tell his friend didn’t want the comfort and didn’t seem to want to hear apologies either so he wasn’t sure why he was still trying to explain anything. But the more he thought about it, the more he realised that yes, it hurt and sucked, but he didn’t mind in the end. “Look at how many people are happy for it. Quinvalis has his sister with him and I think she might be getting a better life in the Weyr. She lived above a tavern. They’re both younger than me and deserve to smile just as much as I do, right? So it’s okay to be used for that.”
He had a funny feeling that F’drel wouldn’t agree with him on that point but sometimes he felt useless and if being used in a way that ended up hurting him for someone else to be happy in innocent ways? Could he really stay upset over it? Of course he wouldn’t want to be used for something evil! And he agreed it still sucked that R’nya simply didn’t just tell him the plan. He was trustworthy! He wouldn’t have told anyone… although he sort of just did, didn’t he? But if he had been told not to tell, he wouldn’t have!
“I’m fine and more importantly, Edath is fine. And our dream isn’t over just yet. So please don’t be angry, F’drel. I’m sorry I upset you and brought my woes to your door.” He did his best to keep his troubles and fears to himself but the failure had hit him hard and he wanted to snuggle up with a friend while he thought about everything over and over until he reached the point he had reached through F’drel’s outburst. He just wished it had gone differently. “I promise I’ll make it up to you.” He really wasn’t a good friend for F’drel and needed to either work on that or simply stop seeing the greenrider so F’drel could go back to a happy normal life.
He had a funny feeling that F’drel wouldn’t agree with him on that point but sometimes he felt useless and if being used in a way that ended up hurting him for someone else to be happy in innocent ways? Could he really stay upset over it? Of course he wouldn’t want to be used for something evil! And he agreed it still sucked that R’nya simply didn’t just tell him the plan. He was trustworthy! He wouldn’t have told anyone… although he sort of just did, didn’t he? But if he had been told not to tell, he wouldn’t have!
“I’m fine and more importantly, Edath is fine. And our dream isn’t over just yet. So please don’t be angry, F’drel. I’m sorry I upset you and brought my woes to your door.” He did his best to keep his troubles and fears to himself but the failure had hit him hard and he wanted to snuggle up with a friend while he thought about everything over and over until he reached the point he had reached through F’drel’s outburst. He just wished it had gone differently. “I promise I’ll make it up to you.” He really wasn’t a good friend for F’drel and needed to either work on that or simply stop seeing the greenrider so F’drel could go back to a happy normal life.