31.Mar.19, 01:58 AM
“Even if it was just to bring Quinvalis’ sister to the Weyr,” F’drel said stiffly, pointedly ignoring R’dal’s concern for him, “it’s still a dick move of him to frame it like a test for you. What, he wants you there so no one can contradict him saying she’s worth Searching? If he really wanted to do it like that, he shouldn’t have acted like Xyreith felt she would Impress and that it was Edath who didn’t know better. He could have done something else. But he only thought about what he wanted, not about your feelings, didn’t he. And you don’t deserve that.”
It was just like a person in charge to put their own priorities first and not care about how their decisions affected others. Even if it was only nepotism — and F’drel hardly knew enough about R’nya to confirm either way, but he trusted the decency of Weyrleaders about as far as he could throw their dragons — there were better ways to go about it than unnecessarily ruining someone’s day or crushing their dreams for the future.
He tried to focus on his anger at how R’dal had been treated, not on his own feelings. R’dal was upset, and what mattered was making him feel less shitty, not upsetting him more. But apparently F’drel couldn’t keep his stupid mouth from saying stupid things and making R’dal worry about how he felt instead of focusing on his own problems. It’s not like R’dal could do anything about things that had happened turns ago. He just wanted to forget, but he couldn’t. R’dal didn’t need to upset himself about any of it.
It was just like a person in charge to put their own priorities first and not care about how their decisions affected others. Even if it was only nepotism — and F’drel hardly knew enough about R’nya to confirm either way, but he trusted the decency of Weyrleaders about as far as he could throw their dragons — there were better ways to go about it than unnecessarily ruining someone’s day or crushing their dreams for the future.
He tried to focus on his anger at how R’dal had been treated, not on his own feelings. R’dal was upset, and what mattered was making him feel less shitty, not upsetting him more. But apparently F’drel couldn’t keep his stupid mouth from saying stupid things and making R’dal worry about how he felt instead of focusing on his own problems. It’s not like R’dal could do anything about things that had happened turns ago. He just wanted to forget, but he couldn’t. R’dal didn’t need to upset himself about any of it.