29.Jan.16, 03:26 AM
Rhaedalyn knew she wasn’t always the most observant but even she knew the mood had shifted in her home and she had been the cause of it. R’nya had been so relaxed and carefree all day and even reacted to a gift in such a way she never would have dreamed of being possible and now he was quiet, stiff, almost shutting in on himself. His apology did nothing for the guilt that was consuming her but it did help her lower lip tremble as she fought back the tears. She was such a screw up! R’nya was sharing an honest emotionally moment with her, showing that he did have feelings and could show them when he wanted to and she went and trampled on them in her careless way because she was afraid.
She didn’t even know what she was truly afraid of but she knew that was the emotion that had gripped her after Aradissicath tried to encourage her.Maybe it was because you wanted more but fear he does not? Standing behind R’nya as he took the seat she had righted for him, Rhaedalyn nodded. Clearly, she had been right in that belief given how things were now. Are you sure about that? No, she wasn’t, but Rhaedalyn didn’t have the foggiest idea about what she was supposed to do, supposed to feel, or even want anymore.
“I’m sorry, R’nya. I’ve ruined such a lovely day and your mood,” Rhaedalyn whispered the apology and all but ran off to get the food she had made so carefully earlier but now probably wouldn’t even be eaten. She wouldn’t be surprised if R’nya snuck out while her back was turned and she didn’t blame him. Everything was ruined because of her inability to act properly around people.
“I’m such an idiot, Dissi,” she spoke aloud, forgetting her training in how to mindspeak in her distress and wiped away a tear that had managed to fall. The dinner was uncovered and Rhaedalyn looked down at it miserably. “Well, the only way I can screw things up even more now is if I spill it in his lap… or poison him.” That was a grim thought and it brought more tears to her eyes because it was absolutely likely with her skills.
She didn’t even know what she was truly afraid of but she knew that was the emotion that had gripped her after Aradissicath tried to encourage her.
“I’m sorry, R’nya. I’ve ruined such a lovely day and your mood,” Rhaedalyn whispered the apology and all but ran off to get the food she had made so carefully earlier but now probably wouldn’t even be eaten. She wouldn’t be surprised if R’nya snuck out while her back was turned and she didn’t blame him. Everything was ruined because of her inability to act properly around people.
“I’m such an idiot, Dissi,” she spoke aloud, forgetting her training in how to mindspeak in her distress and wiped away a tear that had managed to fall. The dinner was uncovered and Rhaedalyn looked down at it miserably. “Well, the only way I can screw things up even more now is if I spill it in his lap… or poison him.” That was a grim thought and it brought more tears to her eyes because it was absolutely likely with her skills.