09.Dec.14, 07:30 AM
With his face smudged with tears, and his eyes puffy from crying, the blush that coloured T’bia’s cheeks from R’nd’s light touch and gentle hold would be hard to notice even by those searching for it, but T’bia knew. At first, he tried to stop crying, but that just made it worse and so he gave into it, crying heartbroken sobs as he curled into R’nd and clung to him for several minutes. His dragon was broken, he was broken, and everything in the entire world was his fault, because T’bia could not imagine it being the fault of anyone else.
Taking a deep, shuddering breath, T’bia leaned back carefully. Wiping his eyes and nose on his sleeve and then brushing that on his legs, T’bia slowly and with great concentration made an effort to pull himself back together. The young bluerider made a few attempts to speak, but gave up when his shuddering breath and hiccups continued to interrupt him. His lower lip continued to wobble as he took a deep breath through his nose and puffed it out in a single breath through his mouth.
“But I did. I break everything,” T’bia spoke slowly, his words a low murmur but each one clear and concise, as he usually did when he was trying to make sure he both was understood, and didn’t say the wrong thing. “I broke Jycenth.” The name trembled and T’bia had to pause to take another breath, which he held carefully for a few moments before expelling as slowly as he could.
T’bia lifted his knees, drawing them against his chest and wrapped his arms around them. Leaning forward, he pressed the side of his cheek to one knee, and looked in R’nd’s direction, but past the other bluerider, avoiding his gaze. “In our lessons, we were told everything about Flights, except for when a dragon won’t, because all dragons do, and none don’t. Jycenth won’t. I broke him. I broke my dragon and now he’s broken and it’s all my fault.” While he didn’t start sobbing again, tears did fall down his face, across his nose, and T’bia’s quiet voice was filled with the guilt he felt for breaking his dragon.
Taking a deep, shuddering breath, T’bia leaned back carefully. Wiping his eyes and nose on his sleeve and then brushing that on his legs, T’bia slowly and with great concentration made an effort to pull himself back together. The young bluerider made a few attempts to speak, but gave up when his shuddering breath and hiccups continued to interrupt him. His lower lip continued to wobble as he took a deep breath through his nose and puffed it out in a single breath through his mouth.
“But I did. I break everything,” T’bia spoke slowly, his words a low murmur but each one clear and concise, as he usually did when he was trying to make sure he both was understood, and didn’t say the wrong thing. “I broke Jycenth.” The name trembled and T’bia had to pause to take another breath, which he held carefully for a few moments before expelling as slowly as he could.
T’bia lifted his knees, drawing them against his chest and wrapped his arms around them. Leaning forward, he pressed the side of his cheek to one knee, and looked in R’nd’s direction, but past the other bluerider, avoiding his gaze. “In our lessons, we were told everything about Flights, except for when a dragon won’t, because all dragons do, and none don’t. Jycenth won’t. I broke him. I broke my dragon and now he’s broken and it’s all my fault.” While he didn’t start sobbing again, tears did fall down his face, across his nose, and T’bia’s quiet voice was filled with the guilt he felt for breaking his dragon.