19.Feb.12, 09:24 PM
Talian frowned emphatically. "Both is probably more like it," he admitted. He drag his feet a bit, idly kicking rocks and watching them bounce along the road before him. "It's a little humiliating, really. I've seen pretty much everyone else start to adapt," he said, though again he cut his elaboration short. He didn't feel right, spilling to Eri. Talian was supposed to be the listener. He'd been there for Erisi on plenty of occasions, sure. He didn't feel right taking back, though.
"It's strange. It's like I feel stuck in the mud. If I struggle too much, I just keep sinking," he said. He paused as a particular plant caught his eye. He walked over to it and knelt, peeling the delicate vine away from the tree with hi thin hands and examining it closely.
Nope. He sighed, half in disappointment and half in relief, before returning the slender vine to it's proper location. "It all sounds really bitchy, I know," he said as he returned to Erisi's side. "But it's been robbing me of sleep. It's been making me anxious around the dragonriders and our classmates...it's hard for me to even get out of bed in the morning without taking something. It's not healthy..." He'd studied depression enough to know where it could lead. "It's shameful. Everyone else is getting on with their lives, and I just don't want to, Eri...Nor do I feel like I could if I wanted to," he said in distaste.
He gave a slightly larger rock a particularly forceful kick. It slammed into an ash tree with a satisfying 'thump'.
"I hate it here, Erisi. I don't even have much to go home to, and I still hate it."
"It's strange. It's like I feel stuck in the mud. If I struggle too much, I just keep sinking," he said. He paused as a particular plant caught his eye. He walked over to it and knelt, peeling the delicate vine away from the tree with hi thin hands and examining it closely.
Nope. He sighed, half in disappointment and half in relief, before returning the slender vine to it's proper location. "It all sounds really bitchy, I know," he said as he returned to Erisi's side. "But it's been robbing me of sleep. It's been making me anxious around the dragonriders and our classmates...it's hard for me to even get out of bed in the morning without taking something. It's not healthy..." He'd studied depression enough to know where it could lead. "It's shameful. Everyone else is getting on with their lives, and I just don't want to, Eri...Nor do I feel like I could if I wanted to," he said in distaste.
He gave a slightly larger rock a particularly forceful kick. It slammed into an ash tree with a satisfying 'thump'.
"I hate it here, Erisi. I don't even have much to go home to, and I still hate it."