15.Nov.13, 08:09 AM
Casa had spent most of her time since the Hatching away from other people; it was a complete turn around in her personality, but she didn't want to spend time near others after what had happened at the Hatching. She had had an abundance of nightmares since then, waking up in the middle of the night covered in sweat, the memories of the half-formed queen still fresh and vivid in her mind. The image still made her feel sick, and had likely been the cause of her waking up so early this morning.
She had gotten up, gone and soaked quietly in a tub, and then gone and brought food back to her room. There, she had oiled the firelizards and fed them, nibbling blandly at the food she'd brought from herself. She hadn't had much of an appetite either. The firelizards crowded around her as she picked at her food, Knack curled tightly on her neck. She stroked their heads gently, eyes listlessly sliding over the walls.
She knew she would have to get over it, eventually. She rationally knew it happened at Hatchings. But it had been horrifying, as she had been right there near Indivara when it had...happened. And she'd never heard of that happening to a Queen egg. It was a huge loss to a Weyr that was just starting to recover numbers, and the whole thing had pretty much killed her desire to be a candidate. She was afraid of being the one to cause such a thing to happen again. And what happened if something else happened - she Impressed, but the dragon got sick or injured and died because of her negligence?
She sat in her room pretty much all afternoon after having finished her chores, unsure what else to do. Shaking her head, she slowly stood and pulled on one of her pale yellow dresses, brushing her hair back as she pulled on heavy boots. The outfit looked odd - a sundress and boots, with no sun to be found in the place - but she wasn't going far. She clomped down the hallway to one of the classrooms where more lessons had just ended. Waiting for the room to clear out, she curled up in the back of the room, tiredly leaning her head against a wall.
She had gotten up, gone and soaked quietly in a tub, and then gone and brought food back to her room. There, she had oiled the firelizards and fed them, nibbling blandly at the food she'd brought from herself. She hadn't had much of an appetite either. The firelizards crowded around her as she picked at her food, Knack curled tightly on her neck. She stroked their heads gently, eyes listlessly sliding over the walls.
She knew she would have to get over it, eventually. She rationally knew it happened at Hatchings. But it had been horrifying, as she had been right there near Indivara when it had...happened. And she'd never heard of that happening to a Queen egg. It was a huge loss to a Weyr that was just starting to recover numbers, and the whole thing had pretty much killed her desire to be a candidate. She was afraid of being the one to cause such a thing to happen again. And what happened if something else happened - she Impressed, but the dragon got sick or injured and died because of her negligence?
She sat in her room pretty much all afternoon after having finished her chores, unsure what else to do. Shaking her head, she slowly stood and pulled on one of her pale yellow dresses, brushing her hair back as she pulled on heavy boots. The outfit looked odd - a sundress and boots, with no sun to be found in the place - but she wasn't going far. She clomped down the hallway to one of the classrooms where more lessons had just ended. Waiting for the room to clear out, she curled up in the back of the room, tiredly leaning her head against a wall.