07.Jun.19, 02:51 AM
He nodded every so often but R'vi had mostly tuned Tala out as he thought about what he agreed to. It really wasn't that big of a deal, and he knew it, but it still felt like it was. It was kind of life altering in his mind. What if the kid decided she liked him? Worse, what if he liked her? He always avoided kids as best as he could, mostly because he didn't know how to act around them and hadn't a clue in how to converse with them. Honestly, he was surprised he had friends. He had been attached to Nyvian's side since he could remember and they did everything together. They were also among the oldest of the kids in Katila so at times they outgrew what the others were still into. If he really wanted to dig into the parties they started throwing when they were viewed more as adults than brats, R'vi knew he'd find that even then the socializing involved drinking, sex, and flirting. He wasn't normal in so many ways. He lived in a forest with his mom and twin then lived in a community of other forest people, then only had his brother because his parents died, then he was sleeping with anyone that wanted him, then he was alone because Nyvian Impressed without him. A mental breakdown and dragon of his own later and R'vi was back to just sleeping with people and not forming much of a deeper connection with anyone. He really was fucked up.
"I don't want to scare her, Tala," he spoke softly and kept his gaze on the dragons. He couldn't bare to look at her and risk seeing pity or even just annoyance at him being dramatic or some such conclusion. Truthfully, he probably was being dramatic but he also firmly believed Ryvala would be better off without him in her life. He had no objections to her knowing he was her father since some people felt that was vital information to have to avoid sleeping with a sibling, but he had nothing to offer the girl and might just freak her out with his weirdness. Even Niath wasn't sure what to make of him.
"Anyway," he forced a smile and tried to sound chipper and carefree as per his usual as he finally faced Tala, "I don't want to rush them but I don't want you to wait any longer to see your daughter. Think they'll have her ready to go around dinner? That'll also give me time to check over Vydoriath's straps so you won't have to worry about safety."
"I don't want to scare her, Tala," he spoke softly and kept his gaze on the dragons. He couldn't bare to look at her and risk seeing pity or even just annoyance at him being dramatic or some such conclusion. Truthfully, he probably was being dramatic but he also firmly believed Ryvala would be better off without him in her life. He had no objections to her knowing he was her father since some people felt that was vital information to have to avoid sleeping with a sibling, but he had nothing to offer the girl and might just freak her out with his weirdness. Even Niath wasn't sure what to make of him.
"Anyway," he forced a smile and tried to sound chipper and carefree as per his usual as he finally faced Tala, "I don't want to rush them but I don't want you to wait any longer to see your daughter. Think they'll have her ready to go around dinner? That'll also give me time to check over Vydoriath's straps so you won't have to worry about safety."