05.Jul.22, 03:30 AM
743.06.xx
I don't know what day it is. I've spent so much time awake and watching over my brothers only to have a small nap and see my family for a short time and return to brother duty. I don't know how either is still alive. So much blood. So many memories. I remember my fear at seeing Cazan after the final attack on her and that came back on top of the fear of losing two brothers.
I got home late. Zanny is already asleep and I don't want to risk waking her by joining her. Maybe I'll have a short nap on the couch and wake before she does to bring her breakfast. I worry she hasn't been eating properly again with how much progress she's made on some commissions.
743.06.22
K'dar has been awake for two days now and Tiberuth is no longer sedated. With Gail and Zory also doing a lot better, I don't need to spend as much time in Benden now. I told Cazan that and apologized for being an awful mate but she waved it all off, saying I'm a good brother and mate that cares for everyone.
We had a good talk about how we're both doing mentally from seeing them near death and overworking ourselves to cope. It will be nice to have K'dar back and taking over his Second duties again so I can fall back into the shadows and spend more time with my mate and kids.
743.07.05
I don't know why she seemed hesitant to bring up the idea with me. Her original pregnancy wasn't even a guarantee to be my doing but I was still excited and promised to raise them as my own. I guess it is a little weird to plan to have a child with another man but as long as Zanny actually wants another child, I'll support her and keep my word to love and raise this one as my own as well.
I don't know what day it is. I've spent so much time awake and watching over my brothers only to have a small nap and see my family for a short time and return to brother duty. I don't know how either is still alive. So much blood. So many memories. I remember my fear at seeing Cazan after the final attack on her and that came back on top of the fear of losing two brothers.
I got home late. Zanny is already asleep and I don't want to risk waking her by joining her. Maybe I'll have a short nap on the couch and wake before she does to bring her breakfast. I worry she hasn't been eating properly again with how much progress she's made on some commissions.
743.06.22
K'dar has been awake for two days now and Tiberuth is no longer sedated. With Gail and Zory also doing a lot better, I don't need to spend as much time in Benden now. I told Cazan that and apologized for being an awful mate but she waved it all off, saying I'm a good brother and mate that cares for everyone.
We had a good talk about how we're both doing mentally from seeing them near death and overworking ourselves to cope. It will be nice to have K'dar back and taking over his Second duties again so I can fall back into the shadows and spend more time with my mate and kids.
743.07.05
I don't know why she seemed hesitant to bring up the idea with me. Her original pregnancy wasn't even a guarantee to be my doing but I was still excited and promised to raise them as my own. I guess it is a little weird to plan to have a child with another man but as long as Zanny actually wants another child, I'll support her and keep my word to love and raise this one as my own as well.