13.Dec.15, 04:25 AM
05.08.236
I'm starting to think something is wrong. With me, specifically.
I'll notice some of the riders in Ren's wing chatting and laughing but they fall silent when I get within earshot. I think they might be talking about me although I don't know exactly what about.
I know I put on a bit of weight during the pregnancy and kept it on for a bit but it's been nearly a year and I thought I had lost it all. My hair has grown back rather nicely as well. My clothes always seem to be in order when I walk by, as I certainly check often enough with running my hands down my dress as I pass them.
So I really don't know what the issue is.
Maybe Z'ia is still upset and has said something about me? Maybe having a child with R'nya when we're not mated is a cause for gossip still.
I wish I knew why they stopped talking when I'm close by as it's driving me nuts!
I shouldn't let it bother me but I can't help it. I thought all was going well and I've been focused and excited for the future.
I suppose I can ask Ren if he's heard anything or to look into it. Maybe I will but first, I need to plan what we should do for Alyren's birthday. It's coming up so quickly! I can't believe she'll be a year old next month. I think a small party is in order since she's still so young and won't remember anything too large. Would just the three of us celebrating together be inappropriate?
I think a nice picnic lunch and afternoon together as a family for our daughter should be all right. I better get to work on her birthday dress and plan what to make to eat!
I'm starting to think something is wrong. With me, specifically.
I'll notice some of the riders in Ren's wing chatting and laughing but they fall silent when I get within earshot. I think they might be talking about me although I don't know exactly what about.
I know I put on a bit of weight during the pregnancy and kept it on for a bit but it's been nearly a year and I thought I had lost it all. My hair has grown back rather nicely as well. My clothes always seem to be in order when I walk by, as I certainly check often enough with running my hands down my dress as I pass them.
So I really don't know what the issue is.
Maybe Z'ia is still upset and has said something about me? Maybe having a child with R'nya when we're not mated is a cause for gossip still.
I wish I knew why they stopped talking when I'm close by as it's driving me nuts!
I shouldn't let it bother me but I can't help it. I thought all was going well and I've been focused and excited for the future.
I suppose I can ask Ren if he's heard anything or to look into it. Maybe I will but first, I need to plan what we should do for Alyren's birthday. It's coming up so quickly! I can't believe she'll be a year old next month. I think a small party is in order since she's still so young and won't remember anything too large. Would just the three of us celebrating together be inappropriate?
I think a nice picnic lunch and afternoon together as a family for our daughter should be all right. I better get to work on her birthday dress and plan what to make to eat!