09.Feb.12, 03:34 AM
Talian understood. He cast a knowing look at Erisi and even managed a small smile. That quick little 'me too' was all Talian needed, and perhaps it carried more weight than a long speech would have. Talian was much the same, after all. It had taken him a while to talk about Fiora, and he'd left his father out of it completely.He felt his arms and neck getting prickly.
"Maybe I will be ready," he thought aloud. He wasn't sure if he wished it or not. A physical outlet would be nice. He felt pressured though, not only by his instructors but also his peers. This wasn't the sort of world he could just dive in to. In a way, though, he was jealous of the people who took to things so easily. Not just sex, either. Everything. Making friends, taking on new roles, adapting to new lives. Talian felt like he was alone most of the time. People like Erisi numbed that feeling. Even when they didn't dive too deeply into the topic, Talian knew he wasn't alone.
He smiled once more, this time genuine and warm. "Thank you, Erisi. I'm getting tired, though. I think I'm going to get some sleep while I can," he said gently. He hated to dismiss his friend, but the conversation left him soothed and comforted. For once, he might actually sleep well.
"Maybe I will be ready," he thought aloud. He wasn't sure if he wished it or not. A physical outlet would be nice. He felt pressured though, not only by his instructors but also his peers. This wasn't the sort of world he could just dive in to. In a way, though, he was jealous of the people who took to things so easily. Not just sex, either. Everything. Making friends, taking on new roles, adapting to new lives. Talian felt like he was alone most of the time. People like Erisi numbed that feeling. Even when they didn't dive too deeply into the topic, Talian knew he wasn't alone.
He smiled once more, this time genuine and warm. "Thank you, Erisi. I'm getting tired, though. I think I'm going to get some sleep while I can," he said gently. He hated to dismiss his friend, but the conversation left him soothed and comforted. For once, he might actually sleep well.