09.Feb.12, 01:21 AM
"They never outright told me," he said. "But they've implied it. B'jin told me that no dragonet would come near me anyhow, and if one did, we would likely both wind up commuting suicide," he said. His eyes narrowed and his voice sank unnaturally low as he spoke, his thin fingers still curled into tight fists. His bitterness fluttered to the surface for a moment, pulling the corners of his mouth down and laying some unseen weight on his shoulder. The debate about B'jin was intentionally forgotten. Talian knew well that B'jin was to blame for his situation, but B'jin was also one of the few people he knew well and had grown fond of. B'jin actually seemed to care about him. Talian suspected a similar potential lied in Erisi, but he wasn't keen on giving up either of them if he didn't have to.
He needed them.
The dark quality in his tone seemed to hang in the air for a moment before he exhaled. He decided to go back to the previous topic. "I...can't think of anything mechanically wrong with the idea," he said sluggishly. "But I can't imagine myself actually doing it. Erisi...to be completely honest with you, I felt like I was cheating on my girlfriend last time. And I've loved her for a long, long time." It was the first time he made an honest, detailed confession about Fiora, though he'd mentioned her various times to various people. He always avoided talking about it. He didn't imagine Erisi had anyone he felt similarly about back home, but perhaps at leats he'd understand.
Shards, were it not for the touchy topic of Nemall, he probably would have spilled to B'jin sooner. It wasn't that he trusted either B'jin or Erisi more than the other, it was just how events lined up. Hhe let out a sigh. "But I'm never going to see her again. And even if I could, it would be because she came here...and I don't want her life to be ruined, too. I guess I just need to get over it."
He needed them.
The dark quality in his tone seemed to hang in the air for a moment before he exhaled. He decided to go back to the previous topic. "I...can't think of anything mechanically wrong with the idea," he said sluggishly. "But I can't imagine myself actually doing it. Erisi...to be completely honest with you, I felt like I was cheating on my girlfriend last time. And I've loved her for a long, long time." It was the first time he made an honest, detailed confession about Fiora, though he'd mentioned her various times to various people. He always avoided talking about it. He didn't imagine Erisi had anyone he felt similarly about back home, but perhaps at leats he'd understand.
Shards, were it not for the touchy topic of Nemall, he probably would have spilled to B'jin sooner. It wasn't that he trusted either B'jin or Erisi more than the other, it was just how events lined up. Hhe let out a sigh. "But I'm never going to see her again. And even if I could, it would be because she came here...and I don't want her life to be ruined, too. I guess I just need to get over it."