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Zarel's Adventures in Zoom - Zarel - 18.Feb.21
742.02.17
Benden Weyr
I did something horrible today, horrible for someone else and me, too, but I also got something out of it I can't give back and I feel like a terrible person. I guess this is how this Turn begins. With a disaster. The specifics aren't even worth saying and I promised I wouldn't.
I Impressed my friend Taydee's bronze firelizard. You see, I didn't mean to at all, I was trying to get it to him as fast as I could but I failed. Now, I'm the worst person ever and he's really angry at me. I promised to take good care of Jasper, the best, but it's just not enough.
I think I lost a friend today and maybe worse? I really, really liked him an awful lot. It's why I brought him dinner when he missed it today. Maybe liking people like that isn't worth it. Maybe I should just keep to myself from now on so I don't hurt people.
I'm afraid if I resent Jasper he'll leave me so I'm trying really hard to not make it his fault because it isn't. It's no one's fault, really, just horrible timing. I tried to get the egg and meat to him in time and things just...went up in chaos.
I'll make it up to him. I've decided that I'm working extra hours with the Candidate Master until he'll let me have an egg. I'm almost twelve! If I work really, really hard I know I can get an egg to give to Taydee. Maybe it won't be a bronze but it'll be his. I know things might never be normal between us again but Taydee deserves a firelizard.
I'll train Jasper as good as Shard. He'll be the best trained firelizard in the Weyr and maybe he can leave Taydee notes on how he's doing. I don't know, I just know I hate the way I feel right now. It's terrible and I'm all cold. The only thing warm on me right now is Jasper and he's asleep.
I sent for a bowl of meat since I know Jasper is going to wake hungry. I guess this is why Candidates are given eggs -- to orient them for what it's like to care for a dragonet when they Impress. It's a lot of work but I know I can do it. It's really easy to know what he wants if I really listen.
Sorry, Jasper. I didn't mean to Impress you but now that you are mine, I'll be the best to you forever. I promise. And Taydee, you'll see. I'll do everything I can to bring you some joy.