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Daydream Believer - Rhaedalyn - 27.Jul.14
Life is full of storms, so make sure you dance in the rain and splash in the puddles.
Re: Daydream Believer - Rhaedalyn - 27.Jul.14
Spent the afternoon with Z'ia. We had a picnic lunch together and then spent time alone amongst the trees confiding in each other secrets and dreams while watching the clouds pass by. It was wonderful!
Re: Daydream Believer - Rhaedalyn - 02.Sep.14
21.04.235
I'm pregnant~ I'm pregnant~ I'm pregnant!
I'm so giddy right now.
I have to tell Z'ia right away! No time for anything else. This is the most important thing! Then I'll tell Kally and Ren. They'll all be so thrilled!
Re: Daydream Believer - Rhaedalyn - 07.Sep.14
22.04.235
My life is over.
It's been exactly twenty-four hours since Z'ia sent me away. I don't think I can keep convincing myself that he needs time or that we can be one again. He's upset and hurt. I'm to blame of course since I was careless after my one and only time with another man. It doesn't matter that it happened from a flight. It's still a betrayal in Z'ia's eyes. I'm not sure if the fact that it was R'nya makes this better for Z'ia either.
I have to tell R'nya still. And Kally. She's come by a few times but I won't see her. I don't know what to say. I'd better think of something soon though since I know her and she'll be wandering in soon and getting me talk
I don't want to talk. Just cry.
What happened to my fairy tale ending?
Re: Daydream Believer - Rhaedalyn - 19.May.15
16.01.236AL
I'm so proud of Dissi! She clutched today and while it still doesn't seem any easier despite being the third time and certainly not any quicker, she did very well and wasn't quite as snippy as she can be.
I counted the eggs after she curled up to rest and there are 55! Another impressive size. Ren seemed happy with the size as well but it was the appearance of two gold eggs that had his and Xyreith's chests puffing up with pride. I know Aradissicath was also pleased with that. I can only imagine her mood if she only had one gold (or none!) after Okalinath recently clutched two. It wouldn't matter that they are friends. At least it wasn't one of the younger ones.
Re: Daydream Believer - Rhaedalyn - 13.Dec.15
05.08.236
I'm starting to think something is wrong. With me, specifically.
I'll notice some of the riders in Ren's wing chatting and laughing but they fall silent when I get within earshot. I think they might be talking about me although I don't know exactly what about.
I know I put on a bit of weight during the pregnancy and kept it on for a bit but it's been nearly a year and I thought I had lost it all. My hair has grown back rather nicely as well. My clothes always seem to be in order when I walk by, as I certainly check often enough with running my hands down my dress as I pass them.
So I really don't know what the issue is.
Maybe Z'ia is still upset and has said something about me? Maybe having a child with R'nya when we're not mated is a cause for gossip still.
I wish I knew why they stopped talking when I'm close by as it's driving me nuts!
I shouldn't let it bother me but I can't help it. I thought all was going well and I've been focused and excited for the future.
I suppose I can ask Ren if he's heard anything or to look into it. Maybe I will but first, I need to plan what we should do for Alyren's birthday. It's coming up so quickly! I can't believe she'll be a year old next month. I think a small party is in order since she's still so young and won't remember anything too large. Would just the three of us celebrating together be inappropriate?
I think a nice picnic lunch and afternoon together as a family for our daughter should be all right. I better get to work on her birthday dress and plan what to make to eat!
Re: Daydream Believer - Rhaedalyn - 03.Jan.16
07.08.236
I suppose I shouldn't be surprised by now since this is our fourth flight but I can't help but being pleasantly surprised and happy when I open my eyes and see R'nya beside me after Dissi's flights. I know it's more to do with Xyreith being fond of Aradissicath but I like to think and hope that Ren encourages the chase as well. If he does, it's likely only done to ensure I don't end up with a rider that won't treat me well or simply because he knows I don't want to sleep with everybody.
Whatever the reasoning, I'm happy with it.
I like waking up beside him and I like stealing some cuddles.
You like more than just that, my dear.
Dissi! That's very unladylike to imply such things.
Nothing to imply when it's the obvious truth. You get very affectionate with him. And no, you're not allowed to blame your actions on our bond and my lust at the time.
Well... if we're going to talk about... that as well... then yes, I do kind of sort of maybe like ...sleeping sex with Ren when I'm in my own mind. It's very... enjoyable? Mind-blowing? Hot? Perfect? Right? nice. Wait, did you say 'right'? Well... I guess that, too. But it's Ren! Everything always feels right around him.
Anyway! I have to finish arranging our new home to our standards. Fort Weyr is so large and different from Katila! And you need to scope out the new Sands since you'll be spending time there soon as well. There's so much going on right now, I hardly know where to begin.
Re: Daydream Believer - Rhaedalyn - 11.Jan.16
01.09.236
Oh my gosh! How could I have completely forgotten Ren's birthday is the same day as our daughter's?! I'm such a horrible person. ;__;
I've been so preoccupied with planning the perfect day for the three us to celebrate Alyren's special day that I didn't even think about R'nya's.
I guess so...
Dissi! Wouldn't that be improper? Taking up so much of his time? Keeping his attention for so late? He is a Weyrleader now after all.
Not that I think a grown man needs to be tucked in... but I suppose you're right. I'll make his favourite dish for our picnic and I'll find or make the perfect gift for him as well.
Re: Daydream Believer - Rhaedalyn - 16.Jan.16
I heard there's been some issues setting up creches in some of the Weyrs, especially since a lot of the women that either helped at Katila's creche or just offered a bed in their own home to a kid or two are now being placed in various Weyrs. I'm worried about some of the children getting shuffled around or not cared for as well as they should be while everything's still in a bit of disarray during the resettlement.
So I've decided to lend a hand in a couple of ways. I'm going to make sure the Fort Weyr creche is cleaned, set up, staffed, and ready to go by the end of the month and I feel like I'm doing well with raising Alyren -- thanks to Ren's help, of course! But I think I could take on another child around her age. I always wanted several kids and... well... I can't produce them on my own and I don't exactly have anyone offering to help either, so looking after a child that doesn't fit into someone else's life will do me perfectly.
I asked about Varlea, the oddly sweet child of Indivara and V'ler since a few play dates back in Katila at the creche went well and Alyren seemed to like the older girl. The woman that had been taking care of her just gave birth recently and said it'd be a great help for me to take her. I'm currently rearranging Alyren's room so I can fit Varlea's little bed in there as well. I'm also going to make her a few outfits to welcome her with.
All that I have left to do before I take her in is tell R'nya. It's not like we live together and I need his permission to adopt a child but I want to make sure he knows Alyren won't be neglected and assure him that I can handle this. Not a lot of people ever really believe in me but R'nya has always come across that he does but I still don't want him to suddenly doubt my abilities to raise two girls.
I'll see if he's busy tonight after dinner. I think he was having a meeting before dinner but I might be able to sneak in afterward to let him know of the arrangements I've made for Varlea and my intentions for the creche.
RE: Daydream Believer - Rhaedalyn - 15.Sep.19
09.09.740
Ugh. Men are so frustrating!
Even when he praises Casa he’s still tearing her down. What the heck is wrong with M’ris that he can’t see how wonderful that girl is and how hard she tries?
R’nya agrees with me but I’m not sure if he actually believes it, just wants to keep me happy, or wants to keep Casa in her own Weyr so he doesn’t have to worry about her and her groupies.
I’m getting ahead of myself, though.
The meeting between the three Weyrs’ leaders went fairly well, I suppose. At least we all agree that we need to start prepping another Weyr with how quickly the population is growing now. Still not as many golds in the clutches as some would like, but we have enough clutching golds currently that the Sands seem to always be in use and it’s better to spread them out a bit more to avoid fights in the sky or on the Sands.
Benden Weyr was the best option geographically out of the three remaining empty old locations. It helps spread out the dragons a bit more and takes the pressure off of Telgar Weyr by having so much land in their territory. Not that we have Thread to fight, but I know some of the Lords in the further out regions don’t like tithing when they aren’t really beholden to us. This will quiet down the Benden area which R’nya has told me has some crankier Lords than High Reaches. Even with the death of the Lord Holder last year, they still seem to maintain their stance in supporting us, which I’m grateful for. If the major Holds turned on us, it wouldn’t be long before we were hated again.
But agreeing on opening a new Weyr is one thing… agreeing on who should run it… that’s a headache.
So much bickering and stubbornness! Finally majority ruled with the idea that M’ris and Ameris should take up the task of leading the preparations of Benden and taking over leadership once complete. We’re all skilled now in running a newly opened Weyr but R’nya put his foot down and said we weren’t moving and he proved he wasn’t budging on that (I think the threat that Jajojin came with Fort Weyr also helped).
Honestly, it came down to the fact that Casa Impressed only thirteen months after me. She’s the oldest—in terms of dragonrider, not age—not already running a Weyr, so it makes sense to have Ista leadership teach her what they know and hand over what they have established while they take their knowledge and apply it to Benden. M’ris was so against this idea! Insisting ‘Blondie’ wasn’t ready to lead a parade to the laundry room let alone run an entire Weyr.
R’nya pointed out that when we’re ready to open High Reaches Weyr again that Telgar’s leadership can move there and leave Telgar in the hands of Mulrissa, their most experienced goldrider. She’d make a wonderful Weyrwoman as well. She’s calm and intelligent and with two clutches now to her name with the same sire, Bedith might be ready to mate and… well, T’ryn is a tad young to lead even if he is a bright boy. But I would support whomever they got to lead, just like I will with Ista.
Which is something we can’t agree on. At least we have the goldrider picked thanks to logic but not many bronzeriders wanted the Weyrleader position originally but I know some might step up now that the heavy lifting is done and things are established. But I suggested we let Casa help pick the bronzerider since she will need to work alongside him.
That also didn’t go over well, what a surprise. M’ris again piping up that she’d just line them up naked and pick the largest of the lot. Honestly! So what if she enjoys sex? Who doesn’t, really? She’s just a bit more open than most and enjoys it with more people than I particularly would but I’m not judging her for it! If given the chance to prove herself, I know she would actually step up and stop letting people believe she’s as dumb as M’ris clearly bought into.
But by the end of the long day, it was agreed upon that Casa could either pick some candidates for everyone to agree on or to sit in on us interviewing bronzeriders. The new system of voting in a leader shouldn’t be so difficult!
Now we just have to start organising the actual clean-up of Benden with making rotating rosters. If all goes well, we should have most, if not all, completed by the end of the year. I’m a bit disappointed I won’t be able to help much since Dissi Flies soon but I’ll do what I can from Fort with organising groups and supplies.
Oh! We’ll have to start encouraging some riders and staff alike to think about relocating as well as put the word out to the smaller holds and farms that we’ll need extra hands at each Weyr.
I have so many letters and lists to draft!