[D] So Close and Yet So Far

((the note was obviously started in some sort of code but then quickly scribbled out and restarted))

Oh great and terrible sorceress, shimmering light of the day, I miss you and the light you bring to my life. It's maddening. You're right there... but I can't do any of the things I want to do, I can't even give you a hug or even try to lean against you for comfort without worrying. The maestro tries to distract me, but he doesn't really understand what's wrong so his attempts are... well he's trying his best. At least you have your Green Knight to keep you company. I can still look to your brilliant smile to stave off the darkness.

- your humble servant and sad old man

So it's not that you're embarrassed to be seen with me like writing a letter implies? Or that you hate me because you were here because of me? We're a class of 23 yet only 21 don't seem to be afraid to be near me. Amagrith thinks you're shy and need puppets to be able to talk.

If nothing else, we're friends and now classmates. Why is it so wrong to sit and talk or even hug in greeting?

-M

Because all I want to do is hold you, kiss you, make you.... well I suppose that part doesn't matter right now. And I'm a master harper, an old man, with a wife who is carrying my baby, and with eyes almost constantly watching. Or at least trying to. I'm in enough trouble with the Hall as it is with certain people, and I don't want to put Quil through a scandal when I can't even be there for her.

I miss you so much that I worry I won't be able to contain myself. So all I can do is just watch you and your green knight and wish I'm glad you're able to have company and happiness at least.

Tell your little manifestation of the sun that I'm not shy, just homesick and missing the sky, both with its brilliance and its soothing night.

-OM

Everyone is allowed to have friends, Master Harper. I'm sorry this has turned your life upside down and ruined your plans for the future. I already have lords and ladies that don't like me and will blame me for my knight's new life so adding crafters to that list doesn't bother me. I bespelled you and caused it all to happen. You're just a victim, as is your wife. In a way, everyone is right to hate me. I didn't want to lose either or you if I ever Impressed.

Amagrith is confused because she can see the day and night here but I'll explain what you mean later.

I'm sorry.

No, no, don't you dare be sorry. You took the essence of the sun, made a beautiful dragon out of her, and then perhaps your desires stole me and your Green Knight along for the ride, but you should not be sorry. I'll adapt. Maybe one day I'll find a quiet place and get to hold you again unless you've decided you no longer need an old man like me when you have such a strapping young lord at your beck and call all the more conveniently now.

My father would not hate you, he would hate me. He wasn't all that pleased last time

I'll be fine. Don't worry.