08.Apr.21, 09:20 PM
"I want to keep you safe too," Cazan grumbled as she gave her mate another squeeze. She didn't want to go on yet again about how she didn't know what she would do if anything happened to him, she'd had to say that too many times already. She was happy though when he pulled her closer and said he'd do his best to keep them both safe. "That's all I can ask for. And I might need a door still. Maybe we can barricade the one to my weyr if you think that would help." She paused and quickly corrected, "My workshop weyr. And no touching strange things. I'll try to pay more attention."
Cazan felt his hand start to shake and tightened her grip on him, unsure if he was just having another tremor spell. The dampness in her hair mostly answered the question for her and she felt crushed. There was more than their physical wellbeing to worry about, it had been rough enough when people they weren't terribly close to were affected by what was happening, but now... he'd lost someone much closer to him. In their home, while they watched.
Maybe she should have tried to pay more attention in classes when she was a weyrling in Fort. Maybe she should have expressed interest in those healer classes... maybe she could have done more to help, at least done something while they'd waited for the healers to arrive instead of just staring helplessly. What if something happened again to someone else? She'd probably still be useless, now that she thought about it. Bending over was already hard enough, getting on the ground to help someone would be even harder.
She could at least be there for T'ryn, and do her best to try and help him. "It's not selfish or bad, T. I'll have Mal tell people we don't want visitors right now, and have Sir keep people out. That's something he'd probably like doing." For now the bronze firelizard was comfortable on T'ryn's lap, though he turned his head so that he could keep an eager eye on the door. Cazan gently slid her hand back and forth on her mate's arm to try and soothe. "I'm not sure if there's anything I can do to make things better... but let me know if you can think of anything."
Cazan felt his hand start to shake and tightened her grip on him, unsure if he was just having another tremor spell. The dampness in her hair mostly answered the question for her and she felt crushed. There was more than their physical wellbeing to worry about, it had been rough enough when people they weren't terribly close to were affected by what was happening, but now... he'd lost someone much closer to him. In their home, while they watched.
Maybe she should have tried to pay more attention in classes when she was a weyrling in Fort. Maybe she should have expressed interest in those healer classes... maybe she could have done more to help, at least done something while they'd waited for the healers to arrive instead of just staring helplessly. What if something happened again to someone else? She'd probably still be useless, now that she thought about it. Bending over was already hard enough, getting on the ground to help someone would be even harder.
She could at least be there for T'ryn, and do her best to try and help him. "It's not selfish or bad, T. I'll have Mal tell people we don't want visitors right now, and have Sir keep people out. That's something he'd probably like doing." For now the bronze firelizard was comfortable on T'ryn's lap, though he turned his head so that he could keep an eager eye on the door. Cazan gently slid her hand back and forth on her mate's arm to try and soothe. "I'm not sure if there's anything I can do to make things better... but let me know if you can think of anything."