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08.Jan.20, 02:16 AM
T'ryn was a mess.
More so than usual.
He'd done a lot of thinking, so much thinking--and panicking--since everything that happened with Cazelerias the day before. None of what happened was like him. He didn't normally accept blow jobs from people he barely knew, or even friends he'd known forever--mostly. Really, Casa was the only one he was doing anything physical with outside of Bedith's Flights. He lacked in confidence for the most part and knew where he stood now with Casa and at least knew what she liked. He wasn't too sure about anyone else and normally wouldn't have even thrown himself into a kiss like he had. Or asked for more after the other person said they should stop. That was a whole other issue he felt like crap about. Had he pushed Cazelerias into giving him that farewell kiss?
Casa did her best to reassure him (after a lot of teasing comments about wanting to watch him with a man), telling him the kiss was definitely freely given from what she could tell, and that a lot of people wanted him so it wasn't that odd of a morning, and that it wasn't odd to like the same gender. T'ryn knew that and was fine with it but he had never been sure if he actually did or not. N'mor had always been the only male he had been attracted to; loved. So it was hard to know if he was attracted to anyone else when comparing feelings to what he had for N'mor. So a lot of time had been spent brooding over feelings and his ability to tell if he liked someone as a friend or something a bit more. Apparently all he had ever known before was friendship and a deep interest in someone that then turned into love if he went by his only two non-flight experiences.
Then there was the twin thing. Casa again teased him about how much fun twins would be together and he kept trying to explain it wasn't that he wanted them both at the same time. But what if he wasn't even interested in Cazelerias but Cazan? He'd even thought about her while her brother gave him head. Clearly something was wrong with him!
After all of that, T'ryn had decided that maybe he was interested in men as well but that he perhaps should still apologise to Cazelerias since the man had obviously been drinking and may have regretted everything himself. T'ryn didn't want to ruin their budding friendship with what happened if it wasn't really intended to happen. So if Caz said that it was a fluke, T'ryn would roll with that and then never think about it again. If there was something more to come out of it, then he'd be willing to give that a go as well. Either way, he had a feeling he was going to be an awkward mess since he had no real experience, or at least no success, in such conversations.
He was already starting out awkwardly as he knocked on the door and peeked his head in a bit instead of just letting himself in like normal. "Caz? I brought breakfast if you're interested." He wanted things to be normal but he had no idea where they stood at the moment so he stood outside in case his presence wasn't wanted just yet.
More so than usual.
He'd done a lot of thinking, so much thinking--and panicking--since everything that happened with Cazelerias the day before. None of what happened was like him. He didn't normally accept blow jobs from people he barely knew, or even friends he'd known forever--mostly. Really, Casa was the only one he was doing anything physical with outside of Bedith's Flights. He lacked in confidence for the most part and knew where he stood now with Casa and at least knew what she liked. He wasn't too sure about anyone else and normally wouldn't have even thrown himself into a kiss like he had. Or asked for more after the other person said they should stop. That was a whole other issue he felt like crap about. Had he pushed Cazelerias into giving him that farewell kiss?
Casa did her best to reassure him (after a lot of teasing comments about wanting to watch him with a man), telling him the kiss was definitely freely given from what she could tell, and that a lot of people wanted him so it wasn't that odd of a morning, and that it wasn't odd to like the same gender. T'ryn knew that and was fine with it but he had never been sure if he actually did or not. N'mor had always been the only male he had been attracted to; loved. So it was hard to know if he was attracted to anyone else when comparing feelings to what he had for N'mor. So a lot of time had been spent brooding over feelings and his ability to tell if he liked someone as a friend or something a bit more. Apparently all he had ever known before was friendship and a deep interest in someone that then turned into love if he went by his only two non-flight experiences.
Then there was the twin thing. Casa again teased him about how much fun twins would be together and he kept trying to explain it wasn't that he wanted them both at the same time. But what if he wasn't even interested in Cazelerias but Cazan? He'd even thought about her while her brother gave him head. Clearly something was wrong with him!
After all of that, T'ryn had decided that maybe he was interested in men as well but that he perhaps should still apologise to Cazelerias since the man had obviously been drinking and may have regretted everything himself. T'ryn didn't want to ruin their budding friendship with what happened if it wasn't really intended to happen. So if Caz said that it was a fluke, T'ryn would roll with that and then never think about it again. If there was something more to come out of it, then he'd be willing to give that a go as well. Either way, he had a feeling he was going to be an awkward mess since he had no real experience, or at least no success, in such conversations.
He was already starting out awkwardly as he knocked on the door and peeked his head in a bit instead of just letting himself in like normal. "Caz? I brought breakfast if you're interested." He wanted things to be normal but he had no idea where they stood at the moment so he stood outside in case his presence wasn't wanted just yet.
