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Leatherworking Notes - Cazan - 01.Jan.20
Ista Weyr 12-740
02.12.740
Arrived at Ista Weyr finally, Sprink was glad for the rest and their stables seem decent enough. Made a friend? Katiryn, seems very influential, got me a room with my own workspace! Small, but I don't have to share it, so that's nice. Told her I'd be staying long enough to watch her go to a dragon hatching in about a month. Almost forgot I don't have Caze around to go on a date with her, had to tone down the flirting.
12.12.740
T'ryn: Riding boots, dress boots, pants(!!!). Might do a vest too for the party.
Accidentally agreed to go with him as Cazan.
15.12.740
Got some riding strap research in with B'kit's help. Nice bluerider, dragon was still a baby. Got to help oil him.
16.12.740
Another guy hit on me, made me think something was off about my outfit. Nope, he was just gay.
17.12.740
Ran into N'reh while trying to find a bathroom, lucked out and he gave me a tour of the best more secluded and private bathrooms in the Weyr. He's a nice guy, very easy to talk to, have a good feeling about him. Seems trustworthy.
((What follows is a quickly sketched series of maps and notes to the bathrooms.))
21.12.740
Today my favorite customer slapped me in the face with his dick. What the fuck.
T'ryn didn't do it on purpose, but still. What. The. Fuck. How? I was there, I had an up close view of it all happening, I'm the one who got dick slapped, and I still am not sure how it happened. We were just trying to get his pants off!
Addendum: We were trying to get his pants off for a fitting, that's all.
28.12.740
((The handwriting is a bit shaky and sloppy in this entry))
Party was good, T'ryn's a gentleman, really made the pants look good. Interesting family too. Best party I've ever been to even if I drank a bit much.
29.12.740
((Much like the previous entry, the handwriting is sloppy, but also the ink strokes are much more frantic.))
What the fuck, oh fuck, what the fucking motherfuck did I do? Why did I the drink, it was the drink I know it was and I sucked his dick and we kissed and I don't know what's happening, and I liked it? going to try and talk to N'reh because who the fuck can I even trust with my head right now what the fuck.
((Further down there appears to be an addendum in clearer handwriting.)) Talked to N'reh, not sure how much that actually helped but decided to tell T'ryn. Fuck. He's probably going to hate me or something but it would be less trouble this way than if he finds out later some other way probably. And it would just kill me to keep lying to him about that if we kept
Breakfast tomorrow. I should try to get some work done and sleep.
30.12.740
Talk was good! Better than I could have hoped for. He's still going to visit, we're still going to fool around have food and fun on occasion, see how it goes. Not really sure what he wants, not sure what I want, not really sure if it matters. I'll end up married to some stranger eventually I'm sure, and everything I've heard about the folk in the Weyr seems to point more towards casual fun than anything else. Dragons make them sex fiends or something along those lines. Sex fiend might be a bit of a strong word for it though. More about having sex for fun with strangers? I don't think I understand it enough to explain it.
I am happy with how the day went though. I like him. So far I like the stuff we do as well. If I'm honest I didn't expect I would, I'm just glad he didn't suggest doing other things for now. There's something about his eyes that makes me want to agree to things.
RE: Leatherworking Notes - Cazan - 14.Jan.20
Ista Weyr 1-741
02.1.741
Been thinking about T'ryn's friend N'mor. Limited mobility due to only one arm. I had an idea for a fastening system for the pants that would let them be tight. Closed laces up the outside of each leg affixed to a sturdy bone toggle peg. Grip the and pull to tighten the laces, tuck the toggle into a series of loops depending on how right he wants them. Going to experiment and see how it works with some scrap leather.
((Below the notes is a sketch of the intended pattern.))
05.1.741
Well I can't drink anymore, not after that fiasco. What the fuck is wrong with me?! Went and freaked out talked with N'reh about it and once again he just tried to insist that everything was fine and nothing was wrong. One of these days I won't tell him something. At least T'ryn isn't bothered by it, which is still weird to me but good I suppose? Maybe N'reh is right. Not going to just tell him that though. But still! She was a woman! What was I thinking?
On the plus side I have an interesting order to experiment with. Also, I still hate going between. I swear there are ghosts in there I think I saw a flicker of something the last time.
RE: Leatherworking Notes - Cazan - 02.Apr.21
742.04.02
Maybe sneaking in journal notes will help again, though it's been a while. Mal's idea oddly enough, even though I haven't done this since before I Impressed. T'ryn was released from the infirmary this morning, it will be nice to have him back home in our weyr instead of in a bed next to S'far's. If he dies I swear I will go between find his ghost and slap him. He's not leaving me with only Yfris and Kor'is to raise this baby!
Fuck... can you imagine a child raised by Yfris and Kor'is? The grumpiest sex fiend in all the land...
I think I need some sleep.
RE: Leatherworking Notes - Cazan - 27.Apr.21
742.04.27
Haven't had visitors in a while, not since Parella... haven't left the weyr in a while for that matter. Took a walk out onto the ledge and almost agreed to let Mal take me on a ride. I might be going crazy.
If I didn't feel like I was about to literally explode I'd just sneak out and go on a nice walk by myself. At least the killers might be dead? I guess it makes sense that there was more than one. Though if there was more than one maybe there was more than two.
I love T I just want to have a moment where I get to relax away from him a little. But what if something happens to him while he's by himself?
Maybe I'll just invite Caze over, so that T knows I have someone with me, and he and K'dar (or anyone else) can go do something so that I know someone's with him. Maybe that will work.
And maybe this damn baby will stop trying to murder me from the inside. I just want to get this over with at this point but the healers aren't expecting me to do anything until another month or so. At least I think that's what they said... I really should have paid more attention but Sir was being distracting.
RE: Leatherworking Notes - Cazan - 14.May.21
I am so tired.
RE: Leatherworking Notes - Cazan - 24.Jun.21
742.06.24
The twins are with the wet nurse right now, T'ryn is visiting someone, Yfris is at the hold, Kor'is is out, Mal is stretching her wings. It's just me and the flitters.
What the fuck do I even do?
It feels like I've been staring at my notebook forever but nothing is happening. I keep trying to rub my eye to get it to focus but... well that's not going to happen.
Maybe if I nap I'll feel something, more awake, more here, more alive. But I've been napping a lot lately whenever the twins gave me a chance. I'm hoping that if I just write anything at all down it will help, but I don't even know what I need help with.
I should probably go check on the twins, they're still mine, I'm still their mother even if I can't... no. I can take care of them. That's why they have a wet nurse. The don't have a wet nurse because I can't take care of them, I'm just taking care of them by making sure they have what they need. At least that's what people have been telling me. Maybe if I repeat it enough I'll believe it too.
I think I'll just take another nap.
RE: Leatherworking Notes - Cazan - 11.Jul.21
742.07.11
Mal has been pestering me trying to get me to go on a ride. She tried saying it was because she needed to practice while carrying a passenger, but I know she was just trying to cheer me up. I went anyway to try and make her happy.
I think it worked though. There was just something about being up in the air, about riding, about the rush of wind and being there with Mal. I wanted to bring the twins up there with me, but with how much she likes to do her maneuvers... I have ideas for something to make. Should be safer and I'd have more peace of mind.
I'll make one for T'ryn too so we can take them both up at the same time together. That sounds nice.
RE: Leatherworking Notes - Cazan - 23.May.22
743.04.15
I don't have the heart to tell K'dar that the twins' actual first word was "Sir." He looked so happy and with all the help he's been with the twins I don't want to take that away from him.
RE: Leatherworking Notes - Cazan - 17.Jun.22
743.06.15
I didn't want to do an entry about the gold that died earlier this month, I was trying not to think about it, trying not to think about other things, trying to tell myself it was an isolated incident and not part of something else. It might still be a separate thing, but now I don't know. I feel horrible for not staying longer, but I don't think anyone else is upset about me leaving. Zory and Gail... I just kept seeing T'ryn and I kept seeing flashes of my own attack and my eye was hurting... It's not even in my face anymore, how could it hurt?! I thought the phantom pains were supposed to have gone away when I got used to things.
I can't even be there to help T'ryn. I left Lady with him at least, Zory's flitter is still too hurt and when she manages to get away from the dragonhealer she just wants to try and cuddle Zory anyway. Sir's with me, Kor'is is around and trying to help... it's something. Mal is distraught and worried, but she can't do anything about it except sulk. I'll probably be grabbing the twins to cuddle and keep myself busy once Kor'is goes or once their grandparents try to return them, whichever happens first.
I hate that all I can do is worry about what's going to happen next.
RE: Leatherworking Notes - Cazan - 05.Jul.22
743.07.04
I'm pretty sure I've gone insane. I suppose I'll just have to see what Yfris has to say after he gets my letter.
RE: Leatherworking Notes - Cazan - 22.Jul.22
734.07.13
It is so nice having Xyxyth around. He definitely helps keep her more relaxed and calm just by being her doorman. The times he goes to do something she's back to agitated vigilance.
((Below this are several sketches of pants along with notes regarding color placement))
RE: Leatherworking Notes - Cazan - 03.Aug.22
743.08.02
Touching went great! Mal didn't notice Zory and Chir take a tumble! Well.... she did, she just thought they were going to "wrestle" on the Sands because they liked her babies so much and wanted their own and she didn't have the heart to tell them that she was pretty sure one of them needed to be a lady for that to work. I'm not telling either of them that though.
Anyways. I have A'tay's pants ready, but I don't want to give them to him until I finish his boots. They're almost done, but I wanted to try and take my time and not rush. Should have plenty of time until the Hatching for him to wear them.
743.08.03
Three... three of the babies decided to follow Mal's example. Caze, Mylo's lordling, and then the Master Harper... who is also seeing Mylo? I don't know, I'm just going off of what one of the siblings told me, and I've been so frazzled worrying about Caze that I forgot which one. Z'lar... I'll have to get used to that. His green is adorable and I need to write a letter to mom and dad but first I should write one to Cazonel to see if he can give me a heads up on their mood and opinion on greenriders, and then also write to uncle Brax to apologize for not replying to his letter sooner since I didn't even bother to read who it was for because I assumed from the official seal that it was for Yfris. I'll just... tell him the twins must have shoved it under my desk while they were playing.
Why is there suddenly so much to do? I feel bad for T since he's the one who is going to go talk to the parents. I should try and do something special for him. Oh fuck I still need to finish A'tay's boots and the party is tonight. They won't be dry in time but the jacket... that just needs the stitching done and the buttons. If I push back the apron and baking glove order then I'll have enough of the thread I need... fuck it I'll ask forgiveness and make that customer a bonus item to apologize for the delay. If I get started on that jacket now I'll be done in time. I won't be able to sleep while I worry about Caze anyway.